"I don't want a grand wedding. Simple one is okay, something private. I want Athena to be there, my mom, Annie, Danny and the people in Marshville since they are also like my family."
"I want to give you a bigger wedding than the last one you've had."
"We got a civil wedding, nothing grand, no wedding dress, no guest.I prefer that one, except with the no guest part."
"He's rich. How could he have that kind of wedding?"
"He never loved me. He only married ne so he could make that bitch jealous and also to have a baby."
"Do you want me to crush them?"
"I just don't want to see any of them anymore and that they won't bother me and Athena again. I don't care what happens to them."
"Will you really let them go that easily? After all that they did to you? Your husband and that woman, I bet they are still so happy now and the mother."
"Regina also helped me, not that much but I don't have any grudge against her. She never wanted me to get hurt especially when I got pregnant."
"That's the reason why they mistreated you, because you were too kind to them. No, that's not kindness. That's stupidity!"
"Can we just focus on planning for the wedding instead of talking about them? And don't you think it's too early talking about our wedding without even the divorce?" Our wedding, how could I say that easily? I'm about to get married with this man whom I just met a couple of days ago.
"I always prepare for everything. I make sure everything is perfect before the day of the event. I hate mistakes."
"I don't need a big celebration. I don't want to get attention from anyone."
"No! I want you to get the attention you deserve. I will introduce you as my wife to everyone so no one can hurt you anymore."
"I don't want to get married then. Please consider my opinion. Just this one. After that, I will listen to what you say. I will never complain. You will be my boss."
"Why don't you want a grand wedding. It's every girl's dream."
"Consider me weird or strange, I don't care but I really can't stand being praised or criticized by people whom I don't know. The more private it is, the better." He looked at me with a serious impression. I'm sure with his status, he gets everything he wants. Maybe I'm the second girl who would refuse his suggestion, the first one is his wife of course when she chose another man.
"Okay, you win. We will have our wedding here."
"Really? We can do it here? Can my mom and Annie come? How about your family?"
"Don't you have other friends and relatives?"
"Annje is the only bestfriend I have, plus her boyfriend. But maybe they are married now. Never got any news from them. And my mom raised my on her own. I never met her relatives since we transferred many times when I was young."
"I didn't know you're talkative."
"Don't you like it? I guess you have to get used to it." I realized I've been talking more then usual. Does that mean I'm getting more comfortable in front of him?
"I don't care if you talk much, I actually like it."
I could feel a sudden gush of blood on my face. I opened a can of beer immediately and gulped it.
"We will get married immediately once your divorce is approved. Aftet that, we will move to my home in the city, you and Athena will be living with me."
"I need to bring someone with me. Danny, I told you about her. She is also in hiding because of me. She was always loyal to me and she never left me even though I coudn't pay her anymore. Can you give her any job?"
He looked at me and didn't say anything. It seems he was thinking about something.
"Okay, I can give her a position. She can choose where she wants to work. And as we talked about it last night, your duties as my wife."
"What duties?" I think this is the part I can't remember. I don't recall anything about this topic. Did I say something stupid? And what kind of duties he is talking about?
"Don't you remember what you said last night?"
"Did I say anything stupid? Can we just forget about it? I think I was so drunk last night and I maybe said something weird or something unusual. That was not me, it was the alcohol which is talking." I wanted to disappear. I don't want to know what we talked about last night.
"I don't think they are stupid."
"Really?"
"Of course. First, you have to be present in all company events. Second, you have to choose a charity where you can participate in and be active in planning charity events. Third, you need to keep your figure and you should always look beautiful because whether you like it or not, you will become a public figure when we get married. And finally, you bed duties."
"What bed duties?"
"I know you are not young enough not to know what I mean. You already have a daughter. As my wife, you should prepare something exciting for me. I expect it to start on the night of our wedding. Got it?"
"What if I can't fulfill them?"
"You will, don't worry."
"Why are you always certain that you get something you want? It seems you can get anything as long as you want it."
"And you're the exact opposite of me. You always use the words maybe and guess."
"I guess it's my way to avoid getting hurt. I don't want to expect too much."
"See? You used guess again."
"Haha! Okay, I will try not to use them anymore."
"That's better."
There was silence between the two of us. We could hear cicada and other insects from outside. I can't believe I'm planning another wedding for myself. Like the first one, it was so sudden. After meeting Geoff for some time, we decided to get married. The only difference is I loved Geoff, but with Colin, he is marrying me out of pity.
"What are you thinking?" He broke the silence.
"Nothing. I'm maybe excited with the life I would have in the future."
"Again. This is certain. You will surely love the life you will have with me, I will make sure of that."
"I know I askes this last night but let mw ask it again. Why are you doing this to me?"
"Honestly, I don't know. I like adventure and I think that is something you can give me. And I'm depressed now, I need something that can help me get back to my feet. I need someone to remind me that I have to let go of my past. That I have a new life now, and that is what you are going to do."
"I will try to help you."
I didn't notice I'm already in my third can of beer. I needed something to give me confidence. Thanks to the spirit of alcohol, I was able to come up with this decision, to finally marry Colin Andrews, CEO of JBC Entertainment.
"Come here, sit beside me. Move your chair here." I am sitting im front of him, opposite the receptions desk. I don't know what gives me the courage to follow what he said but after hearing his order, I got my chair and moved beside him. He then held my hand.
"Your hand is quite rough. It means you worked too hard."
"I had to, for me and my daughter."
"I have a question. Why did you say yes when I asked you to marry me?"
"I don't know. I guess I found my hope in you."
"Should I kiss you whenever you use the words guess and maybe?"
"Haha, sorry. It is a habit."
"I will help you, in everything, don't worry."
"Thank you."
We held hands for I don't know how long. He also started telling me about his plans, his trips, his company. He told me about many things. I was able to enjoy a night of conversation with someone without feeling scared about what would happen to me and my daughter in the future. I found hope with this man. I may not love him and my reason for marrying him maybe wrong but I don't care as long as he can help me get out from this misery. I'm willing to do everything for my daughter, everything.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked.
"Haha! Why do you suddenly want to kiss me? Do I look too hot for you? Haha!"
"What if I say yes?"
"I know I'm hot. Haha!" Since when did I become overly confident?
He then faced me, held my hands then put them around his neck. Our faces are too close from each other. I could feel my haertbeat. It seems it would explode soon. He placed his arms around my waist.
"What do you feel now?" He asked.
"Nervous."
"Are you scared of me?"
"Should I be scared?"
"Will you stop me if I touch you?"
"Why don't you try?"
"Should we do it here or should I carry you in my room?"
"How about doing it here?"