Nana looked at her in surprise.
Mu Shuchun wished to bite her tongue.
What was I thinking?
"No.," she heard Nana say.
Mu Shuchun stiffened. The light in her eyes slightly dimmed.
"I never thought of aborting my child, not even in my dreams."
There was a beat of silence.
She slowly asked, "W-why? You were only twenty-two at that time. You carried the child of a man who was already married. That in itself was so frightening. It would be so complicated to raise an ill- I mean... people would have scorned you and your child. Your life would have been much worse."
Nana said nothing for a moment. She lowered her head to look at Jian, who was peacefully sucking his milk. Her gaze turned clouded as if she was lost in a distant memory.
"Do you know what was the first thought that came in my mind when I learned that I was pregnant?"
Mu Shuchun waited for her to speak.
