As far as I can remember life has been so cruel to me. To who it has not been cruel. "Earth to Jenny!!", as Meera shouts. I get back from my head, "why do you get so carried away all the time", Meera complains. "It's just something, I don't know".....that's all I can say to my very close best friend!, " I am just got up by something" I say with a sigh. "Yeah like always" Meera comments. "As your best for the past 9 years can I just advice you one thing"
"Please don't" I exclaimed.
"Something must be wrong with you Jenny or else why will you not just go on and just live your life out there, and if a man really wants something he will just go for it he will not be sitting around like you"
"what do you mean" I tell angrily, even though I am angry with her for always pointing out my mistakes but still she's the most honest I have ever met.
"Like you don't know what I really mean" she tells as she rolls her eyes.
"Yeah yeah I will do it this time, whatever", I tell as I drown off to sleep curling myself inside my sheets at least, I act as if sleeping curling inside my sheets in my window seat, so that she doesn't disturb my already disturbed soul, as the flight takes off.
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I close my eyes as the flight takes off. "Hey man!" I open my eyes to a voice from my right side. As I open my eyes there he is my younger Brother Alex. "Yeah tell" I tell as if I don't have much time, "You really ready for this bro"
"Don't start again"
"C'mon Stephen, you are too young to get married, it's just been two years since you have graduated from college"
"So what, this is what our parents wants"
"Uhh you are always going to be a people pleaseer, pleassse" he tells it with a drag, as I can literally feel his urgency with his voice, but what can I do much. "Just leave this topic, don't talk about it" I tell with firm voice making it clear to him that no discussion about this topic any further.
" If you don't really want to talk about this fine, but only one thing I want to say you have to marry someone whom you love so much with all your heart not someone for your parents, just for the sake of marrying because it's not our parents going live with them it's you, just remember that"
" Okay that's enough and thank you for your care"
" You're so stubborn bro, you will never change your decision once you made it nah"
" You know your brother very well huh" I laughed, which made him angry.
I know he just wants me to have a happy life, I can understand his care for me, but I just don't know what I am going to do with life, it's always been controlled my parents but they have never taken a bad decision for me so I believe even this time their decision never goes wrong. Hope so, I sigh with a deep breath.
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As I opened my eyes, the flight was near our Destination Edmonton, Canada the place where I was brought up I came back to my hometown again. Memories flashing back my friends, my family I'm going meet them after two years it's been a long time. I just can't wait but I am also a bit nervous too, after I went off to New York City for my job I seriously didn't think about my college friends much except my best friend Meera, who had been with since I can remember through thick and thin going through all of my mood swings and burst outs she's has been there for me. Even though I call my parents often it's just that meeting them after long time just make me nervous could be the fact that when I left them I left as a child or girl who dependent on them but now I am a women who earns herself, just the fact that there must be a lot of things must have been changed. Whatever it is I have to face with it.
As I was again clouded with my own thoughts the flight attendants announced that we are going to make our landing and to wear our seat belts, and I did as they told.