Today I woke with full confidence that I will surely rock my day. The day was just perfect. Neither too hot nor too cold.
Next I was preparing myself to catch the train. My intro was not over yet even after a few months. All of a sudden a group of 4 th year students came pointing and looking at me, "Hey you, Come here, it's intro time"
I was shocked it was supposed to be a brand new start. I was murmuring in my mind : Are you kidding me after 2 months, you are taking my intro..
I went there. A group encircled me. They were asking me endless questions. But I was hurt the most when they asked me if I had a boyfriend. It was only yesterday that I recovered and now they have started rubbing salt on my injuries. I immediately said no. And thus the intro concluded.
There was a computer exam in college. Though I couldn't fare that well, I tried my best. I spent the rest of my time with Lacy and enjoyed having her as a companion to gossip about almost everything.
Suddenly the gossip was interrupted when Sky came. He prompted me regarding the intro. Although I was interested in speaking to him regarding it, I displayed a hint of coldness in my behaviour to create a space and to draw a line between us. I chatted with him regarding it.
During the practical class, like usual he sat beside another of his classmates, to avoid me. But I was no longer bothered. I sat beside Lacy and enjoyed my time. I realised today it's no use sacrificing oneself for the sake of everyone. Only dear ones needed to be treasured.
Another thing happened after I reached home. My school friend with whom I was out of touch for several days, opened a weibo account. I was very happy to find her.
I gossiped with her for the entire 49 minutes. She chatted with me about her college. She was also talking about her classmates and Bunk mates. Funny right! . But some people are real experts in bunking classes, especially in college. She told me that we would meet really soon. I felt happy yet I felt a bit suffocated.
I no longer love or care about him , I guess so. I guess I didn't have any pain in my chest when I saw him hanging out with other female students, trying to help them with their programs and talking to them with a mysterious laugh behind them.
But why am I thinking about him again?
No , no! I won't bother people, especially not him anymore. Not with a heart of love anymore..