That day after he had reviewed he asked me to send him the questions that our mom had given us to complete by the next day. The English work wasn't tough but it wasn't helpful either. I immediately sent him but little did I have the idea that I had sent him the wrong one. I hurried too much so that was the result.
Next morning I planned to complete the task when I got hold of the situation. I had just realised what disaster I had caused. I was unable to refute myself. Actually I had sent him the wrong set mistakenly. As soon as I saw I had sent him the wrong set,I called him up. I felt too guilty but had to face him. No matter what it's regarding exams and also I can never wish my man to be in a grave disaster just because of my foolishness.
He missed picking it up. As soon as I had made up my mind to call him the second time, he called back. As soon as I picked up I disclosed the matter. But I was in despair when I heard him reply coldly. The sting in his voice stung me. But being unable to face it, I disconnected. But things have gotten worse ever since I reached college.
He was clearly trying to ignore me or avoid me. On this hand he is avoiding me on the other Snow and Ellie the two lesbians were ganging up to join me in their group. Lacy was having an acute stomach ache so she was lying down. She didn't move. As soon as the break time arrived they both kissed me on my cheeks.
Thankfully it was not the French one otherwise my first kiss would go for nothing. Sky saw us but he didn't comment. For some reason I felt he was avoiding me on purpose. And I still feel it.
Other days on seeing these things he would close Gray's eyes and say pointing at me, "These acts are performed by professional lesbians. Do not imitate. And it's not for kids. "
Usually I hated this comment but there was a mix of concerns for me. But today it's different. He feels different. I tried to chat with him but he didn't open up. On the other hand he was chatting like usual with others. Don't you think it's just too much? Why avoid me? I know I will never disclose my affections towards him no matter how hard it becomes for me to keep.
Without his consent I would never put him in the blind spot. That is how I am and I have always been. But is there any need to avoid me? Have I annoyed him more than usual these days? All sorts of thoughts and imaginations were crossing my mind. Finally I concluded that he is trying to avoid a mess.
Yes! and the mess is me, I and myself. Ever since I had entered his life I had been annoying him too much maybe but he cannot tell me to begin with. The problem with one-sided love is that it simply grows without the consequences and never thinks whether the other party is willing or not. And the same was the case with me. In order to contact him even just a little I message him everyday by giving various types of excuses so that I can at least have a one liner with him.
But maybe my feelings are directed in the wrong way. Maybe he gets literally annoyed because of this but just to fulfil my thirst I simply maybe annoy him. Maybe I'm just garbage in his life. But still, still he could at least tell me the reason.
My focus was getting vague in the class and I was unconsciously looking at him thinking and doubting myself once more whether it was a wrong decision to truly fall for him…