Here i was attending the wedding of the man i loved as a fool through out my college years

I remembered how we first met....

He was the handsome popular guy and i was a girl who was only with a limited group of people who likes to live in her own comfort never bothering about others so we never crossed our paths during our freshmen year . But one day when i was isolated by my group of friends due to their internal battles. which i never cared .I was a person who never involves myself in conflicts because i believe that a small talk can solve them .

So,as i was isolated by them i was silently reading my book in a corner of library about this awesome new automobiles which was so interesting that i didn't even realized that some one sat beside me and when i just shifted in my chair i noticed him he was smiling like this crazy guy i always had this bad impression of him since day 1 i wanted to avoid him even though we were in same department and never talked.But i was startled when i saw him this close.And he started this long stupid conversation about the book i was reading which annoyed the hell out of me and instantly he was labeled as a jerk and i just left.But it never ended there he was enjoying annoying and arguing with me that when ever we are just side by side it was like a never ending battle of words.then we became kind of frenemies . Our little banters made us close and even he opened up to me about his family and mainly about his breakup were they were childhood sweethearts and i was like his mental support during all his bad days.

But i never noticed how things slowly started to changing where i was falling for him i didn't realize from when did i started to have such feelings for him which confused me and i started to avoid him but when he confronted that why i was avoiding him i couldn't hide so i confessed my feelings for him and i asked him if he don't feel the same way he could just reject me and i will try to stay away but he never said a yes nor no but he said he liked me but he was not ready for any commitments after his break up with her. so, as a understanding and an optimistic girl i said i will wait for him.i was happy at least he didn't push me away but also liked me and i decided i will make him fall in love with me.

I was a fool who didn't know the difference between like and love .Even though the difference between them is just by a silver lining but the difference was huge. My life started to revolve around him everything i do was for him even i tried scoring less than him just to make him happy so that he will not inferior to me . But as days pass by when never seriously fought about anything because i was the one who always compromised first even though he was wrong in some situations and whole campus new that something was going between us but he neither accepted nor declined so i thought he is also slowly walking towards me because all this time i was the one running for him at least now he started to take steps towards me that's what i thought( but i was a fool).than one day he asked me to sleep with him but i rejected him saying that such things must be done only after marriage. I was ecstatic i thought he also started to love me that's why he asked so ( But i was wrong again i was such a fool )as soon as we graduated i started working hard for him because he never liked to work and wanted always loved to travel and enjoy and i didn't mind so i worked hard to make him happy and stay by my side and love me nothing more .

But i was such a fool i never realized the day i rejected to sleep with him it all ended( All my effort to love and make him happy gone down the drain). And here i am at his wedding because his lover is pregnant. I always thought that she was the other woman in our life's but sadly i was the other one that was the truth . And i know very well when it all happened he said one day that we reconciled and she is just a friend now but i always had this feeling that he is never going to stay with me and will leave me but still i tried to hold onto it stubbornly but it all shattered when the day i wanted propose to him again and when i went to him skipping with joy what welcomed me was a wedding card and that he was going to get married my eyes started to burn and i could clearly hear my heart shattering he was my first love he was the only person who i wish to stand beside me i asked myself this question way to many times why do you love him but there was never a reason i just loved him that was the fact. I asked him why?now .but he answered there was nothing between us to begin with my world spun and i collapsed there seeing his retreating figure.

But stubbornly i attended his wedding and that very next day i left the country never looking back.Hoping i will never face them again in this life i indulged myself in my career i forgot all the worldly connections and ties i strive to be on top so that i wont look back and here i am after 4 years the CEO of REIN AUTOMOBILE LTD .

I achieved success but my heart is dead.