Kevin: "..."
I looked straight into his face. And he seems to be doing something wrong to tell what, exactly.
"What?"
I was waiting.
After a few hesitate gestured, he pulled my elbow to follow him. I couldn't say more...seems like he's about to tell something without being finding it out by someone else.
"Sit." he instructed to me and I obeyed it.
Sitting down on the couch in his room, I did take turns examined his facial and body language, promptly. He took his wooden chair from his resting spaces, placed and sat down in front of me, closer.
"You seems so serious, Kev..." I said trying to smooth the chilling surrounding.
He kept quiet and bore his eyes on me.
"I've been waiting for this moment, sweetheart. It took me long enough to deliver the messages, I secretly endured, just to you. Your own hearing..."
Goosebumps spread throughout my body like a waves. I swallowed hard.
"Before I started, do you trust me?" he asked and I must answered it.
"Yes."
"With all of your heart?" he asked again. He seems worried about me, really much about me.
"Yes. I do."
He's totally nervous. I could see it all over himself. It's that so hard to carry the secret too long? To deliver the secret safely?
"Just so you know, I love you so damn much. I really in love with you not for a little time but all over my life. From the beginning I saw your little face on your father arms, how you squirming into my arms, your first smiled to me... everything about you...it's all evolved within me..." he stopped.
"Kev..." he put out his hand signaling me to stop.
"It's so hard, baby. What I'm about to tell you is that...my life will be end soon..."
"No..." I said covered my mouth. I shaked my head disagree...
"Don't tell me anything..." my voice started to tremble. I was sad but confused at the same time. And, I don't want to loose Kevin...
"You have to know about it, baby..." he placed both of his hand on my hand. He grasps on it tightly, never let go.
"No..." I shaked my head trying to let loose my hand from his grip.
"Pretend that you didn't hear anything I asked...please..." standing abruptly, I had been trying to go but he made me stand there.
"It's the truth...it's all about you, your family...your daddy and I... did promised him to take good care of you and your mommy...but I only can do that only for you..."
What's that supposed to mean?
He dragged me with him until he forced me sitting on his swivel chair then he opened the locked first drawer. I was simply looking at him didn't understand a thing.
"All inside this was your history. Read it. I leaves you on it. When you done call me. Stay here!"
With that he walked away from me to gives some spaces.
The brown and thick envelope sitting still on the table. I couldn't have a courage to open it. The previous dream...that my dad did turned his back from me...why it kept replaying on my mind?
Not to let it go, I didn't realised that I poured down all of them and scattered it in front of my eyes.
The first thing I saw was a bundle of agreement between company A and D...I didn't get it. Too much for me to understand it.
"Relax...relax..." I breathe in and out for several time to soothing my inner beast.
Slowly, I examined them one by one and placed them by my owned categories. I did once again evaluate them just to let my brain totally registered them all.
Closing my eyes, the flooded information fill my spaces like a film. Everything takes turned to show the sequence of the events. All that begin when I had been sold to the unknown organisation long ago.
Then, under a few gruesome examination I was sent to the other facilities. I don't know on what purposed.
I sit straight and could hear the heart beats from here to the other side of door. Kevin's heart.
"Kevin..." louder enough I called him.
The door being opened slowly and revealed Kevin in tired state.
"Do you get it?" he walked nearing me...
"How?" swiftly, I was already at his side.
He didn't even surprised. Not even wavered.
"Someone killed your daddy in order to complete his weird obsessions towards toys. You're the only one and the only living toy that alive from those cruel and gruesome tests...what you see from those photos..."
"Why?" with soft voice I asked circling him. I know my face no longer contain any emotion but inside everything exploded.
"You're gene and blood type were rare. Your father was a bio weapon. I meant, he was being created by old and vanished organisation almost hundred years ago. I met him, without knowing anything about him until he got you. Your mother was a test subject to show the possibilities of possessiveness towards human being. She's the only one and after delivered to you, she's being terminated, supposedly but I've managed to save her.
I couldn't gave her full attention because you're so small at that time. Your father being killed soon after your two months ages and your mother suicide by drowned herself during your 13th birthday. The memories that you do have not all true. The new organisation did something to alter some of the memories and locked it away, hidden within your conscience."
I listened carefully...
He continued again. "When your father died, I took your in in my life. I was so young at that time, and easily falling in love with you but my mistakes were I let them take you to the test.
They kidnapped you while you were walking home after meeting with your friends. And, they found out who are you and control your body without your permissions. They gave you back but you've no longer the Adeena that I used to know. Don't worry, my love to you never faded..."
He slumped his body to the couch while I was standing there trying to inhale all that into me.
Killed? Suicide? Human being? Am I not a human? Then, who am I?
"Keep going..." I asked wants to know everything and wants to digest them all.
"I let you work with boss in order to keep you away from those memories but unfortunately, they turned you into something that you used to be..."
"Some kind of agent, right? The movie that we used to watch when you free..." gulping, I sad beside him.
"Yeah...our favourite's."
"For how long I've been held there?"
He glanced at me before put away his stare towards his neatly table.
"Not too long...just until you turned 18. They let you go unconscious on the street. I found you because every single days I will walked to your kidnapped scenes hoping to find you and I did. You came back but you seems lost. Not knowing anything. So I teach you the basic but with your intelligence you manage to live for yourself alone..."
"What do you mean by that?"
"I don't know what the organisation did to you so I left you alone to find it out but under my surveillance for about couple of months. Just tell you that I was on my business away and didn't say anything except nodding at it.
I didn't go anywhere, just rented a room at nearby motel to keep an eyes on you."
"What happened?"
"I did recorded everything for your own eyes but not here. If I can't manage to let you have it just go to our old house and look for a gold dust container and press the container. You'll know soon..."
His eyes showed so much emotion swirling around it. It's complicated but I know how he's feeling right now.
"Too much to tell you and I'm sure you will find it out soon but...please do careful with everything. Don't trust anyone else when I'm gone..."
The grips on my hand getting tighter.
"Keep yourself safe. Many people out there looking for you for their own interests... Promised me to take good care of yourself and... live a happy life whenever you can. Don't let them stopped you from your dreams, sweetheart..."
"Kevin...am I human?" the question that I've been desperately need the answer.
"You're much more...more than me...more than your parents. So much potential but after all you are a human with unique self."
"What?"
"Let me show you..."
He take out his always-bring knife and sliced my arms open from inner elbow down until my middle finger. The thick black-red blood pouring from the wound but within a few seconds it's all gone. The wound already recovered by itself leaving behind the blood traces.
Truthfully, I don't feel any pain because I don't focus on it just curious on what was going on.
"Don't let people knows about this, your abilities as well as your blood colour. Your blood rich with everything but in so much greater than average human. When people find it out, they will use your blood until you die. Or worse keeping you alive but using you until the end. Just enough with testing subject...even if I die, I can't take it...seeing you like a rug being used. Enough. I just want you to be able living like everyone else... that's all..."
I didn't cry but my heart feels like being stabbed by millions needles continuously.
"I'm sorry Kevin...I couldn't returned your love because I didn't know how..."
I looked at him. What should I say to him, now?
"It's okay...you don't have too..." half whispering he placed my fallen hair back to my ear and slowly kissing my forehead.
He smiled. He smiled at me...his genuine smile...
"Come on...let's go out."
"To where?" I asked confusedly.
He just smile. Without changing into other clothes, we walked out but he did destroyed the evidence after I've seen them.
That's the last morning and day, I was with Kevin before the numbers of shooting series took place all over his car. We managed to be in his car and just out from boss territory before I black out.