"Mmhh....." the groan slipped out of my parted lips...
I was breathless, choking inside this silly iron suit. Aigo! I hated my life. Disgusting! " Why am I so dreadfully cursed?
A part of me, exceeding 90% , wanted to die and I even cherished this idea, but then, there was a weak, feeble me, who vise- gripped me and preserved me, everytime. This kept me what I am till now and maybe my soul was aware of something valuable that I' d loose and I was unaware of it...
I was absent-mindedly watching the evening of the Busan beach, a sea of vibgyor parasol beside an azure one, the farther side of which cropped up an intimate feeling in me.
I lifted my iron- gloved hand to swipe across the window pane. Easing my move, I kept it on the window, an incomprehensible ease that was pinned with my every move...
A coronet slivered through the clouds that overhung the sea....
Chun Xao gave me a lot of meditation advises but it was hard to meditate, with such an bleary life.
I had a disease, unnamed disease. Somewhat similar to SCID, but only my skin would get infected if bared in the air. It prevented me to uncover my skin and impelled me to live inside an airtight iron suit with different respiration apparatus. Iwas almost devoid of the sensation of touch, for I could only touch the inner part of my suit that always pressed against me.
Down on the beach, the beach goers were completely enjoying in the brine, allowing the water to wash their napes when they backstroked.
The tears welled up and overflew down to my coller, they were warm.
I jerked my head to throw these excruciating thoughts away but my captivation was defiantly impermiable to them.
It provoked the insane idea of suicide in me.
Finally, it happened. The idea came out in fits and I felt a carnal desire to die.
"Mia, where are you?Mia!", the speaker in the suit broke into Mom's voice.
I didn't answer.
"Mia, Mia, can you hear me?", she was coming! "What shall I do?" I knew that if she would come, she'll prevent me from death and I didn't wanted that.
"I need to finish it.....,this needs to go quick!!"
I scrabbled for the 'Open' switch which had to be somewhere at the back of the suit, and rest would be done by my own body.
"It'll not take much longer, only if I get the switch"
I clamped myself against my bed and struggled to get it.
Swish! I felt a twinkle of light passed by my mind, I felt unconscious....