I got up out of bed in pain and ache from not sleeping . - skip to school - I feel mixed emotions , sitting on the bench with talena . I feel like crying , smiling ...I don't know but my light headed thingy when I had no sleep last night is affecting me... BADLY . Like I'm not here ... Like i'm not here in reality but people can still see me or I feel like i'm in a dream , fuzziness everywhere .
I feel like spilling tears of what Molly said , she told me she would have lunch with me and go down but instead she just held my LUNCH time up FIVE MINUTES and said " SoRrY I HaVe LunCh " and I feel like crying just thinking about it . And so I went alone in my cute shirt , couldn't put on my hoodie on since rushed down to get lunch at tims and the girls were outside when I got back . Mareah yelled ( Grade 9 Student ) " ITS TOO COLD TO WEAR SHIT LIKE THAT PUT YOUR DAMN HOODIE ON !!" and everyone laughed . Again throught this whole time and even now writing this , I feel depression , It is L.A ,Told Talena i'm lightheaded , and so she keeps an eye on me .
We have high winds and maybe of the likes of it , no power so I wait for school to be over . We have science last class , and i'm excited since we have a sub . Although the rest of the school day is not canceled happily ;3; , After school activities are canceled . ( MaTh ;3; ) I sit back on the bench back to my own thoughts . I feel things like mentally depressing thoughts . I want it all to be over , as this nightmare of not sleeping is affecting my working.
Logan and Andrew past by the hallway , head on wall while they probably thought * shes not working , Oh well , she sucks * and *sigh* this class was taking forever so I decided to take a break from writing and think deeper in my lost thought's . Hopefully I don't faint . I'M HEADING TO BED AS SOON AS I GET HOME * I thought - well maybe * publish's chapter and shut's chromebook* " Hey Talena wanna come over ? " I asked in boredom . She nodded and looked forward and postivaly thought this will be over soon enough ..