We got to a more secure private area and plopped down into the couches, the interior was just great, greens and reds and yellows, the interior perfectly matched the name of the club, I obviously chose the red couches because its my favorite color, just then I remembered that HE never liked my red hair, I had to change it back to black or grow my hair out to my natural color, we sat down and enjoyed our spliffs together, feeling relaxed for the first time in so long we ordered some drinks, sipping on my Dirty Martini, (extra dirty) we started talking about what went on after school.
~ Flash back explaining~
After school I got my first job for minimum wage, I couldn't really complain as it was better then not having any income at all, coming from a family with not a lot of resources I had to make due and help in the house as much as I could, my first job was taking and printing photos, editing and mounting canvases, it entailed not sitting down, my feet would hurt so bad at the end of the day no matter what shoes I would wear, i cried most nights but tried what I could... After about a year, I received a job for a little more money, still considered minimum wage, longer hours, also no sitting down ever, no smoking, lunch time was considered a luxury, working in a small store, they still treated me well, until on one of my very off days I bumbed into a school friend who flipped out when she heared where I was working and told me that they have an opening and I should apply, which I did, and i got the job working as a retailer selling phones and receiving commission, I was enjoying my work, doing my best receiving incentives and also won phones on a regular basis for doing my job so fantastically life got better, after a short couple of months the bigger most competitive shop came over and offered me a great opportunity to grow which I couldn't refuse, i had no social life anyway so why would it matter? I was making work my life and I was having fun doing it... Getting good money, praises from my clients and bosses life was great! After a few months I confinced my friend who got me the job at the previous shop to send her cv to us, which she also got the job fairly quickly and I was out of my skin happy that I could help her the way she helped me, I was asked multiple times by clients if I wouldn't want to come work for them which I refused, until one day i applied for a other position in my company and they told me that i had no value, in which I was hurt to my inner core,
A few weeks went by and I lost my work MOJO if you can call it that, so I started taking my lunches, and my off days which i was entitled to, I stopped caring about what I did, I stopped giving that extra mile I use to walk, I started hating my life when I recieved a phone call from yet another school friend of mine who told me about her leaving her job, would I be interested in taking it? I grabbed the oppetrunity above minimum wage, off weekends, early frydays, it was like a dream come true, that was when I met HIM, over wechat, we chatted over the phone for a few weeks and he asked if he could come over during the week, I was a bit hesitant and agreed anyway I needed to start getting my life on track, so he came over, I made him dinner, we chatted and ate, and he left, he started asking me who I was talking to every second of the day, I didn't think much of it, and soon we were dating,
~ His name is forbidden for me to speak of in fear HE might come back, ~
He was verbally abusive, screaming at me every chance he got, and later he would tell me that he was sorry and that it wouldn't happen again... Until... He grabbed me by my throat and pinned me to the bed screaming in my face... I had enough of that i couldn't so I grabbed some things and called my mom,
~ end of flash back ~