Previously On Just List Our Hearts
"Is that suppose to be funny?"
"Look Jaemin as much as I like to live as a lawful person you are the only person I have no problem breaking the law to help you and if you try to run away, remember what happened early you won't want to experience that again right."
A Week Later
Jaemin's P.O.V
This girl seem younger than me yet she talked like she was an adult it was my choice to leave this world it isn't her business why can't she just leave me alone.
'I can't take it anymore!'
I stand up and head to the door as I open it I see the two guards standing there as usual I step out the door and head down the hallway to the kitchen to find that little girl.
Eating she looks up at me and smiles happily "Hello Jaemin how are you today."
I ask coldly "When will you be letting me out?"
Emma says "When I think you can fight again, Don't forget we have excising to do remember to have a healthy mind a healthy body is needed. You look handsome today what would I do if I couldn't see such a beauty like your self in my life."
I look at her and say "You wouldn't have known me if you just mind your own business whether I die or live you shouldn't concern yourself with a complete stranger."
Emma laughs then walks up too me and says cockily "You are family Jaemin and the only time I will call you older brother is when you start being an older brother. So come and eat I have someone to meet you today."
I say angrily "I don't have a younger sister so I don't need a little girl like you to call me older brother."
Emma gets up and walks towards me then wrap her arms around me and says "We all know that is a lie Jaemin so stop trying to reject your life. Your little sister would be so sad to hear her big brother is saying that she doesn't exist but too bad she does."
I tried to ply her arms off me but I couldn't even make her budge I say "A man and a woman shouldn't be in such close contact."
Emma laughs and says "Jaemin don't worry I am hugging you because they say that you need to feel love and that you are needed. I know that this is how our culture but as you were away you shouldn't be too uncomfortable with this I am sure you have hugged a few people in your life already."
I look at her and say "I didn't get hugs since I was a child as far as I can remember all I was told that I had to do was study well and make myself into someone there was no getting sick and even when I was sick I had to listen to another language and memorize it. So I could get a scholarship too a college away and be just another foreigner who would stand out in the crowd. After years of being beat down because your too smart and you always trying to be better than anyone in your class who would want to live in a world like that."
I didn't realize tears were falling until Emma cool hands started touching my face Emma says "You had bullies in high school tell me who they were I will find them and teach them a lesson. As for studying this is our culture and you made it so far but if you don't want to study anymore then take a break until you feel like doing so again don't view the world so narrow minded.
There are so many other things you could do and if your parents don't want you to take a break then live with me my parents hardly care what I do so all you have to do is live with me and do whatever you feel like.'
"Okay let me rephrase that do anything you want as long as you don't endanger yourself or get in trouble with the law."
I say "Says the girl who kidnapped me."
Emma laugh and says sassily "And I will do it again if I have too not that I kidnapped you after all you are a strong man so how could a weak girl like me kidnap you who would believe that story."
'Wow look at this little girl playing innocent'
Emma lets go of me and pulls me out the kitchen to the dinning room she puts me to sit down then put a plate with toast and eggs then a glass of orange juice with a cup of soybean milk.
Emma say "That's all I could make today I got up late sorry."
I says "Well next time I will get up earlier and make egg rolls with string bean soup and rice."
Emma smiles and says "Oh my Jaemin you can cook now that something I would like to see how about you make some kimchi pancakes with rice cakes for dessert tonight."
I look at her and say angrily "Do I look like an other woman too you or a grandma I don't know how to make that as of yet."
Emma laughs and says "I am joking Jaemin no need to get your panties in a bunch."
I stuff some toast in my mouth that's how the day begins again does this girl not have school.
Emma's P.O.V
I watch as Jaemin slowly eats his breakfast today Eunae is coming over her parents don't know that Jaemin is here with me because the doctor said they were part of his stress and it would be good for him to meet them yet.
So I invited Eunae since he doesn't have any stress towards her so this should help since she talked about him so much now I barely pay attention to anything anyone back then in high school.
I was really a selfish person and friend even as an adult so why did I change and when did I change I look at Jaemin and smile look at him alive and kicking every day he has said exactly what he wanted to say.
I stay home a whole week from school to watch him and I installed cameras in the room to make sure he didn't do anything of course I didn't watch it I hire people to do so.
My parents are really weird I mean thinking about it they seem really strange, why did they let me bring a complete stranger into the house and hire people to watch him.
Jaemin finishes eating and heads back to his room to bathe Eunae should be here in an hour I decide to go change into something more sports wear.
As I returned from the bedroom Jaemin was already seated in the living room with a blank look on his face and when I look to the door it was open and Eunae was standing there with tears in her eyes.
Jaemin stood up and shouted out "WHY ARE YOU HERE?"
This isn't the reaction I expected then a memory hits me.
Memory 1
Author's P.O.V
Emma sat down in the office of Eunae's little bakery and Eunae says "You know only not that I am older I can understand what feelings my brother felt when I called him a coward."
Emma doesn't say anything except look at the wine that were on the wall then she decide which one she wanted to drink today. Eunae looks at Emma and laughs "At least one of us didn't hurt anyone of our family with bitter words."
Emma looks at Eunae and says "Nae, the dead doesn't come back to life because their time has already past and if calling someone a cowards hurts them then it was true and you did the right thing. Now why don't we start drinking before I have to go shopping before my husband comes home."
Eunae smiles bitterly at Emma and get to wine glasses and place on in front of Emma as Emma sits back down with the wine she wanted to drink Eunae says "Em you really know how to hurt people."
Emma smiles sweetly and says "Nae the only times someone really hurts is when your opinion matters to them does my opinion even matter to you, after all you self said that you call him a coward but that doesn't mean you killed him. He killed himself no one force him or told him too he decide to leave the world that way and if I am to be honest that is one of the worst choice anyone can make."
Emma filled her glasses and started drinking as the wine calm her mind and she forgot everything that she said to Eunae at that moment while Eunae saw that Emma was someone you could not care about regret or scars that made people have guilt.
Emma turns to Eunae with a sarcastic smile "Are you happy now?"
Eunae laughs "Of course I am happy now it all in the past now. There isn't nothing I could do to change or make that day not happen again. Oh yeah Emma when are you going on a vacation again let's got together next time."
Emma laughs and continues drinking her wine while Eunae thought about just how twisted her gulit might seem to someone who didn't really care about other people problems.
Memory 1 Ends
Well I guess I forgot that Eunae said some hurtful things to her brother before he died and it left her with a guilty conscious but why did I forget that oh yeah as a woman we tend to forget things that are important or not important.
Eunae doesn't even put on a slippers she just runs to Jaemin and hugs him while crying loudly and she says "I am so sorry big brother I didn't mean what I said that day I was just frustrated that you were letting people talk down to you when you are such a incredible person. I am sorry please forgive me."
This was the first time I realize something those word probably repeated in her head all the time and she didn't get to apologize and then he went missing only to find out he killed himself.
That must have been devastating when she found out that no wonder she never dated or moved out her parents house she felt responsible but at least one thing change she got too apologize this time around.
Eunae crumble to the floor and Jaemin crouch down and started wiping away her tears she look at him and tears came out his eyes too that's when I made my presence known.
"A touching family moment guys but we have some exercising to do so come on healthy body healthy mind."
Eunae looks at me with a strange look then back at Jaemin and they both started laughing "What's so funny?"
Eunae stands up with a smile "I really know that you were bad at reading the room but I didn't think that you were this bad Em. I feel sorry for you future boyfriend."
Jaemin throws his head back laughing "Emma don't worry you will have a boyfriend who will understand that you need to be told and taught what to do in these kind of situations."
Wait a minute are they making fun of me "I can read the room it's just we have a schedule and I have something very important to do later."
Eunae P.O.V
Seeing my brother actually laughed made me happy it's been years since he laughed like this the coldness in his eyes were actually not as cold as before. Our family don't believe that children can get stress or be depress because they provide everything that you needed, so all you had to do is excel and my brother did but he started getting bullied he didn't even report it.
Only reason the family found out because he end up in the hospital with a broken arm and fractured leg as well as a busted lip and a small whole in his right hand. When I saw his condition I almost lost it those kids had to compensate because they were minors and it wouldn't benefit anyone if it became a case in court.
My parents took the money and used it as spending money for Jaemin when he was in Canada he had the latest things they taught that would help him get over things but they wouldn't let him get counseling. My dad told Jaemin to be a man and for the first time in my life I actually ran away from home that day.
I didn't realize how unconcern in emotion, mental health they were but Jaemin never ever talk about anything and I got angry that those boys posted recently about what they did to him and made fun of him and he didn't even care.
So I called and ended up saying some hurtful things like living like a coward it would be better to be dead and why couldn't he man up and deal with these little boys. I know I shouldn't have said that but I was so angry that when he hang up I didn't even call back and it lend to this him going missing.
I regret that I wasn't on his side and told him to get some help since he's an adult and he should care about himself but thank the world that she found him and brought him back from the edge of darkness now he is getting the help he needs.
He seems more or less like his pasts self, we walked to the door Em looks at me and says "Are you happy now?"
For some reason these words seem to make me want to cry again then I knew this moment seem like deja vu Em looks at me with those usual cold eyes and smiles sweetly before pulling me into a hug.
After exercising Emma made some tteokbokki I was actually shock that Em could cook I thought she only knew school work and how to fight I look at Em and smile "I didn't know that you could cook Em!"
Em smiles and sits down "Oh I did a course when I started living alone." 'Alone does her parents hardly come home aren't they rich too why didn't they just hire a cook for their house.'
I look to see Jaemin already eating and I pick up my chop sticks and try it another skocking thing she could cook and it was tasty I take out my phone and call Suji the phone rings before she picks up.
"Suji-ah what are you doing?"
"Hey Nae-ah I was about to eat some ramen with kimchi and bulgogi.'
"Well you know what I am doing right now eating Em's cooking!"
I could hear the phone drop and then I hears Suji laughing "Hello Suji are you still there."
"Nae-ah are you serious your at Em's house right now."
"I said I am eating Em's hand cook tteokbokki"
"I am coming right now how dare you guys have a sleepover without me I will be there in a hour bye."
The phone line with dead and I started laughing I look at Em and take another bite "Suji said she coming she said how dare we have a sleepover without her."