Mr Jack who was my mother's most believer manager would betray I never thought. I had gone to his house to meet him and take revenge on him but my mind turned into something else after seeing his photo hanging on the wall. Garlands were placed over Mr jack's photo. Yes, he was dead. After asking his wife, I came to know that only a few months after my mother's death, he had an accident and there he passed away. How did this happen? I screamed sitting inside the car. I couldn't understand what to do. The person from whom I had come to ask for my answer had passed away.
Whom should I trust? Andi who just recently told me that my mother is murdered and Mr jack was involved in that or my dad who has confessed himself that he killed my mother.
Mr Jack was only a way to know about my mother, but he was no more.
I did not even know when the day went by while investing. I stopped talking to Dezze too, but it's not like I wasn't aware of her daily routine. Dezze was a bubbly girl since school. She used to come to school with a "no fuss, straight talk" type attitude. That's why she used to have enmity with many girls. But never thought I would meet her again after school ended.
I know that Andi and I have grown up since childhood. Have played with each other.
But why did he do this to me? I was thinking about Andi that suddenly I get Andi's message and I opened it.
"I can't live without you. what to do? shall I commit suicide? Yes, I have to do Only then you and Dezze will be able to live happily ever after. Please forgive me. I know that whatever I have done to you is not worth forgiving, but still forgive me if possible. Goodbye, my sunshine."
I....i....i was not ready for this. I have no idea Andi would do something like this. But on one hand, my mind was also saying that it's ok if he will die. At least my heart will get peace, at least now I will be able to live peacefully. But still, my foot reached the parking place while running from the office. I have to stop Andi from dying before I'm too late. Sometimes I get angry with myself. Whatever happened to me but the humanity in me never ends. Damn fucking humanity.
There was only one thought in my mind while driving. "Why am I going to save that person? What reason am I going to save that lousy person? Whatever he did to me isn't that enough to let him die?"
While thinking, I reached Andi's apartment. It's not like it's my first time entering that room. But as soon as I took a step into the apartment, I slowly started remembering the old days. The more I went inside, the more memories joined with me. At last, I stopped in front of Andi's room. Astonishingly, I was standing in front of the room in which I had sworn never to enter.
"Knock, knock." The door was slightly open but I still knocked on the door. After waiting for 3 minutes, I enters inside when I did not get any response from inside.
The rooms were covered in darkness and the windows and doors were also closed. If even the slightest light was coming in, that too from the outside door. After 5 steps ahead, the switch of light automatically on and as soon as the light was on, it seems that I have come to another world where only stars are visible. The twinkling lights were shining from the stars all around. The twinkling lights were shining from above too.
Since childhood, I loved watching stars. There was a telescope in the house from where I used to sit in front of my mother and watch the stars and used to tell her how beautiful the stars are, but it cannot be more than my mother.
I did not even know when the smile came to my lips, but as soon as I heard Andi's voice from the back, I did not know when the smile was snatched from my lips.
This happens to me many times these days. Whenever I smile openly, I feel that am I happy too much? That's why I hide my happiness in some corner.
yes, I have to become Fragile Heart because that's how people believe a rape victim's words.
Yes, you have to appear too weak in front of people and if you laugh a little more or become happier then people start doubting whether something bad has happened to you or are you acting?
Anyway, as soon as I looked back, Andi was standing in front of me holding a bouquet of roses in his hand.
Seeing him so close to me, for the first time my foot started twitching and I went back two steps.
"(enthusiastically)I knew you would come back because you still love me. That's why you can't even see me dying, right? (kneel down.) This is for you. (says while forwarding the bouquet of roses in front of me.)"
"You misunderstood," I say while again taking two steps back. I don't want to show my fears in front of him But I get unable to do this. Whenever I am in front of him, my feet, my hands, and my body all start trembling.
"No, that's not true. you still love me That's why you came here to see me. (Holding the bouquet of roses properly and gets up from his knees. with wobbling two steps moving towards me and says.)"
"(I indicate to stop by my hand.) Stop there and don't try to come close to me." that hazy-foggy wretched night I again began to see with clarity. I was very scared. I didn't think that I would face Andi again. As many times as I was keeping my step backwards, Andi was taking his step forward. The less I was breathing, the more my chest started hurting. I was going backwards holding my chest but there came a time when my foot slipped and I fell to the ground.
I was gasping and my breath length gets shorter. I was just only can able to see the blurry around me.
I close my eyes and fall my full body on the ground. someone comes swiftly into the room and starts fighting. My body was not working at all but I was able to hear clearly with my ears.
When I opened my eyes I was lying in the hospital bed and Dezze was sitting beside me.
She was holding my left hand with both hands but her right hand was covering a bandage. Sleeping Dezze wakes up at the feeling of the movement of my hand and raises her head.
"When did you get up?"
"Just now But what happened to your hand?"
"Eeeeee heeeeee Nothing, it's a small injury."
I intentionally gripped her wounded hand.
"Ahhhhh ahhhhh ahhhh Jesse it's hurt."
"(I leave her hand.) Now tell me how did you injure your hand?"
"I went to your office to ask what time you are arranging the party but suddenly seeing you sitting in the car with complete trouble I followed you. seeing you on the ground unconscious I lost my mind and…and….and....i...i.. (stops in the middle.)"
I just realized that I have to arrange a party at home. I saw the watch which was hanging on the wall. By this time it was 10:00 at night. My head turned.
"Ohhh no, I have to go."
I was about to get out of bed when suddenly Dezze grabbed both my shoulders and lays me forcefully on the bed again.
"Have you gone crazy? In this condition you are thinking of having a party ? This announcement is not so important to me. You can do it even after staying for a few days. The most important thing right now is your health and nothing else."
Whenever Dezze gets angry at me she opens her mind and scolded me. her anger appears with all purity. That's why I never get upset with her. It seems that love is showing me. I didn't say anything, I just listened to her scolding. After a few minutes, Suzy also came inside the room.
Haaahhhhh, Sometimes I think who would have made her a psychiatrist. Hahhh...
Sometimes I feel a little jealous of her because of the way she carries herself, I might not be able to do that. With so much work, I don't have time to think for myself. She is a psychiatrist but still keeps herself so well. Going to the gym, and maintaining her body, all this is well known to her.
" What's this? My patients in another hospital? you are still alive. Thought I would be flirting freely with Dezze but you are still sleeping comfortably with your eyes open." placing her both hands on Dezze's shoulders.
it's really annoying when Suzy starts talking very lovingly in front of Dezze. I want to pull her hair.
"(Smirk) I am suffering because of your noise. If you don't mind, can you go out? I have something to say to Dezze in private." Nothing to say to Dezze but I don't want to see Suzy's face. With any excuse, I want to kick her out of this room.
"Ohhhhhhhhh (dramatically) Looks like someone disturbing by me. Okay. I'll go out for now, but I'll be back after 10 minutes."
"It's no.....t like t..hat, you're thinking wrong. You can st...ay here if you want but (adorable smile) without talking."
I hate you Dezze. I thought you only have given me such smiles but you are giving to Suzy too. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you...ugggghhhhhh I am getting very angry, but I can't even get it out.
"(Patting Dezze's shoulder.) If I stay here, there will be an earthquake." Suzy maintains her cool manner and says while looking at me.
I roll my eyes.
After spending 2 days in the hospital, I got back
to my work. Suzy also used to call occasionally for treatment because she felt that I was improving. But after this accident, she has been calling me every day in the hospital for treatment. I am starting to get doubting. Is this girl taking revenge on me?
"Maam.."
I was thinking while Sitting in the office chair only then my manager calls me from outside of the office's door.
"Ohh you, come in." just Like a boss sitting down in a cool manner, I sit in that way too.
"Ma'am, (forwarding a file in front of me.) Here is the file that you asked for.." sits in the front chair.
While giving the file I noticed that she had a beautiful ring on her ring finger which I really liked. As a boss, I don't want to interfere with anyone's private life, but the amount of time I had spend with her is very beautiful. she is very loyal and passionate about her work. That's why I thought that I should ask because sometimes we also need to make conversation with someone.
"Are you getting married?"
"(my manager Somehow hid her blushing face and replied with full professionalism.) Yes ma'am."
"Wow, Congratulations."
"Thank you (bows head) ma'am."
"I think you need to take some rest."
On hearing this, my manager stared at me like a ghost. she starts feeling that I am firing her from the job.
"Ahhhhh (I cross my hands for "no" indication.) No, no, no, I Just giving you 1 month leave for your marriage preparation."
She lets out a relieved sigh and gives a bubbly smile.
lucky are all those people who get a chance to get married to their favourite one. If I speak myself, then I never got a chance to do anything of my choice since childhood. Many times before marriage, I thought that I would run away from home, but did not even want to go against my mother's last wish. To have a happy life with Andi was her last wish but now she might be angry with me. she has given me a lot. Those
things I probably won't be able to repay till I die.
If I am restless at this moment then I am restless on only one thing. "my mother's death."
I want to know the truth about her death. Maybe A lot of injustice has been done to her.
But if I ask, whom should I ask?