Upon waking up I feel the utmost sense of dread and place my hand over my eyes, I could hear Kirito talking in the distance to a familiar voice.
(I guess we make it back ok.)
"How could you teach her Alchemy knowing full well why it was banned?"
I hear master Chen speak in response to Kirito.
"In these past few years things have changed, Her wish and will are to make this world a better place alongside everyone else that is here. She knew the consequences but this is the path she has chosen."
I could hear a loud crash in the distance and sit up. I then hear Kirito yell even louder.
"There are other ways rather then learning things that could possibly kill her in the long run!"
Chen sighs and clears his throat.
"I believe in her and you should too, I fully believe she has the strength to master this technique and use it as no one else could ever before."
I force myself out of bed and use the wall to guide me, I step out of the room to find Kirito holding Chen by his collar.
"Your pathetic Chen!"
I take a deep breath and let it out slowly before talking.
"Kirito stop it! I asked for this and he did what I asked, If you want to be mad at someone then be mad at me!"
I cough while holding my chest, Kirito instantly lets Chen go and rushes over to me.
"What are you doing out of bed you need more rest!"
Kana also comes over too.
"Kirito is right lets get you lying back down."
Kirito helps me back into bed and I roll over to face the wall, Kirito sits down on the edge our backs facing away from each other.
"Yuki...Do you know why Alchemy was banished in the first place?"
I nod my head.
"Of course...Because the power it brings is always destruction in all forms. But did you know that there is a construction form of Alchemy created recently...Master and I created it in hopes that we can use this to win the war."
Kirito sighs and leans back a little.
"Why did you lie to me the other day about your seal?"
Shocked about him finding out I sigh too.
"I just didn't tell you the full truth...The seal is not just a seal...It is also the complete research of our findings except for one key fact that only both Master and I know."
Kirito glances over at me and Master comes in closing the door behind him finishing the sentence for me as he walks in.
"A key fact that we cant tell you."
Kirito looks at Chen with full rage.
"Why?"
I turn back over and look at Chen who nods. Tears stream from my eyes. Chen sighs before finally giving in.
"Fine, if Yuki is ok with telling you then I'll tell you, but not here follow me."
Chen looks over at me concerned before leading Kirito out.
(Kirito pov)
Once in a secluded area, Chen looks at me with seriousness.
"Once I tell you, you can not and will not discuss it with Yuki it's already been hard enough on her do you understand?"
I hesitate but nod.
"When Yuki and I created this we knew there would be consequences...But what we didn't know was how badly the consequences would be until it was already done. That night Yuki said she completed the research and sought out on trying the technique under my supervision. Towards the end she got success but what we didn't know was for this to work she would have to sacrifice something. After months of research, we had thought we looked at every angle, and never once did we expect this of all things."
I interrupt him feeling a sense of urgency.
"What the hell did she lose?!"
Chen sighs and looks up at the bright moon before finally revealing it.
"She lost an ovary and Fallopian tube. Her other ovary and Fallopian tube has scaring. Her chances of bearing children are nearly impossible, and even if she did bear any children her life would be at high risk."
Shocked by his statement I stand there stunned, I think back on when my sister gave birth and she was so in love with the idea of having children. Tears welp up in my eyes.
"So...The final piece of the puzzle is to lose...Something you want in life right?"
Chen nods his head and I immediately walk away.
(Yuki pov)
I touch my stomach and sob silently.
(It's all my fault...He can't have children because I...)
Just then I hear the door burst open and I gasp, I turn around to see Kirito who looks full of anger but has pity in his eyes.
"Kirito I-"
Before I could say anything he sits down and pulls me into a hug.
"Kirito...I..."
Kirito places his hand on the back of my head and holds me tight.
"It's ok, We can get through this."
I immediately start to sob.
"But I...I took our chances of having babies in the future away, How could you not hate me for that!"
Kirito just strokes my head as I sob in his arms, Finally, he says something that shocks me.
"I will never hate you, You're so strong and I am so proud of you...You took the chance to be able to save so many lives even though you knew it would cost you so much. Your amazing and...I love you. If you are so worried about not having children I am sure that after this war we can find some to adopt."
I stop crying for a moment to look up at him, I could see the tears in his eyes. He smirks with sorrow at me before cupping my cheek with his hand and planting a gentle, loving kiss on to my lips.
(Kirito pov)
After a while of holding Yuki in my arms, she falls asleep, I lay her down flat, wipe her tears away and pull the blanket onto her before walking out closing the door behind me. As I walk out I'm stopped by Kana.
"The night the incident happened I went to see her in the hospital. She looked so devastated and scared. Please be kind to her."
I smile softly and look out the window as I speak.
"We will get through this...Together."
Kana smiles softly and touches my arm.
"We are all here for you guys too, do not forget that."
I nod and take my leave...and for the first time in a long time feeling completely utterly defeated.
(There isn't anything I can do to help her...and it's killing me!)
I clench my fists.