I went home first because I couldn't find Malik-san.
Though it's rare, sometimes I Malik-san will come home late so I will have the time for myself from time to time.
Well I'm usually alone when gathering Lulu grass but it's different, I'm on a quest so my mind will be more focused.
Now? I don't have anything to do so I just go to my bed and lay down for a bit.
It's probably around 16 o'clock right now. Malik-san won't be home until 20 o'clock so I don't have to prepare dinner now.
Ah..
When I don't have anything to do.. Somehow my mind started to wander into 'that' direction..
I haven't done 'it' ever since I came to Alsar. Afterall, Malik-san is always with me and even when he's not around I'm too afraid he will come back when I was in the middle of doing 'it'.
In the first place, I don't have too much of sexual desire. Even back in japan I only do 'it' around once every 3 weeks?
When I was dating someone, having sex is a given thing. Since it's normal to do it, I just do it. It's not like I had the urge to ravish her or something, it's just.. Since other people do it, I also will do it.
Well my relationship never last really long and I'm not that popular so I don't have much experience..
Sometimes when I went to drinking party, a girl will approach me but I rarely join the drinking party.
Ah, I guess I'm even more of a loner than I thought..
Umm.. When was it the last time I masturbate.. Probably around a month and a half?
If my friend were to know it, they would yell "It's impossible for me!". They all have high sexual desire afterall, they often boast to me that they do it every two days or something.
Will I become impotent if I hold it in for too long?!
I pull down my pants slowly and take my member out.
Because it's been a long time, I hesitantly stroke myself..
Ah, a reaction.
I'm not impotent afterall.
"Ah it feels kinda nice.."
Should I really do 'it' now?
I have a lot of time right now so I guess I should.
Ok, first I'm going to take my pants off. I don't want to dirty them.
I take my pants off, fold it nicely and lie on my back on the bed.
"Ah, not good.. I can't think of anything…"
With my hand still holding my penis, I muttered.
This is not good, nothing comes in mind at all.
I tried to imagine holding some girl but it didn't work.
I already forgot the face of the idols back in Japan and the woman in Alsar is bigger and tougher than me.
I prefer to hold a small and delicate woman.. But since I've never seen any woman like that in Alsar, it's hard for me to imagine it..
Ah that's right since same-sex relationship is normal in Alsar, should I think about guy instead?
It's not like I have prejudice against gay.
Back in Japan, I never had a gay man approaching me so I don't have the opportunity to explore myself.
Ah but it's hard to imagine myself embracing the guy in Alsar. The difference in our physique is too great.. Even my imagination cannot process it.
Come to think of it, gay people do it in the ass, right?
Won't it rip?!
I think I have the standard japanese man size but still, won't it rip?!
I feel like my penis wilt a little imagining it..
"Let's stop thinking about scary things.. Think more about good, nice things.. Yes, the good thing.."
T-that's right!
In Alsar same-sex relationship is normal, right? So there had to be a way to do it safely
I heard if stretched properly, the prostate will feel incredibly good afterwards..
"I think I'm getting accustomed to Alsar's custom a little bit too easily.. I even thinking about how hold a man right now.."
But I can't imagine a woman right now..
It can't be helped for me to try and get creative, right?!
It's only for masturbation material afterall!
It's not like I want it to become a reality!
Okay now that it's decided, let's try once again how to embrace a man..
"But.. I don't want to do it with buff old man…"
Most of the adventurer I see in the guild has really incredible muscle.
I don't want to embrace them! Scary!
Let's try to remember if there's any cool looking guy instead..
"Today I met Chris-san.. He's really cool and has this sexy aura about him.."
Chris-san, he's really handsome and cool..
His voice and eyes is too mesmerizing..
He also seems to be used in flirting around, the way he carries himself is so smooth..
It makes me thinking that kind of cool looking guy is in different caliber than me, the ordinary guy.
Ah!
I can't use him for my masturbation!
I have to meet him tomorrow! I can't face him tomorrow if I use him now!
'Ren-chan, where do you want me to touch?~'
What?
Suddenly, I can hear Chris-san voice. Ah my imagination is running wild! I can hear his voice inside my head!
"Ah.. not good.."
It seems like I can't get him out of my head..
When I imagine him speaking in his low voice into my ear, my penis jerks in excitement.
I can't help myself.. I want to stop but it feels too good..
Human is a creature of desire afterall!
'You're getting wet from hearing my voice?~'
Nngh, each time he talks I feel shiver going through my body. It's like his voice is caressing my whole body.
Gently, I hold my penis tightly with my left hand and stroke it up and down with my right hand. Tingle of pleasure starts to build up with my every stroke. Drip of precum begins to form from the tip of my penis, coating my right hand with it.
"Hah..ngh.."
I use my precum as lubrication to help me stroke my shaft. The squelching sound resonating inside the room, with the mix of Chris-san's voice I feel really obscene.
'Stroke the backside too, you will feel even better~'
"Ahn, ungh…"
I put more pressure into my hand and I stroke the backside of my penis too.
My waist starts to tremble slightly and I arch my back as more and more pleasure overcome me.
'Fufu ~ Ren-chan, does it feel good? You're so adorable~'
"Nngh! H-hyah..!"
I press my body into the bed and spread my legs apart. I lift my knees a little so I can grip my penis easier.
'Won't you touch that place too?'
Hesitantly, I shift my hand and fondle my aching balls. My other hand is still vigorously stroking my hard length.
"Ahn, nngh.. W-what's this..So good.."
I pick up my pace and I can feel more of precum leaking out, the squelching sounds is getting louder. It's so wet, it's so good, everything is too much. I can feel my sense goes spiralling out of control.
'I want to finger you here but I will save it for later~'
"Nngh! Mmha..!"
What? Finger me? There? Ah I can't think straight anymore. My mind feels dazed, I can only think about the overwhelming pleasure. I want more, more.
My precum keeps on leaking, dripping into my puckering hole. My stroke is getting even more frantic, I can feel the heat building inside me. I'm getting close!
'Are you going to come, Ren-chan? Please tell me if you are~ I want to hear you say it~'
"Ahng! C-coming!"
Splutter of hot sticky semen coats my hand. I keep coming in small interval and my body jerks accordingly. After no more of semen leaks out from my shaft, I try to catch my breath.
"Ah, I did it…"
Ah, that was crazy.. It was strange but in the end it was really..really..good..
I've never thought having the feeling of someone dominating me could feel so good..
My semen, it's so thick and sticky. Well it's to be expected though since it's been a while since I last let it out.
"Ah.. What should I do… I don't know whether I can look him in the face tomorrow… For now, let's use [Clean] to clean my mess."
The leftover semen on my hand immediately disappear and my hand is crystal clean now. It's like I never came into my hand at all. I put on my pants and opened the window to air the room which has the stench of semen and sweat in it.
Okay.. But really..
WHAT HAPPENED?!
I got off by imagining a man. A man!
I didn't think I would really use a man for my masturbation material, well it's not like I'm prejudiced against it but to actually do it for real is a different matter afterall.
Ah but it was really good though.
…..
Tomorrow is another new day, let's just let it be.
It's been a while since I last masturbate.. I'm so tired.. I think I will close my eyes for a little bit..