"Sorry because I always make you angry, cry, disappointed, and others.
If I could see your smile once more, then I would be very happy ... "
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Chapter 15
Once when I had given up on my life ... I met him ... He who looked so bright despite being covered with the darkness of the sea ...
I never thought I would meet him in this very darkness...
That day ... It was the start of our meeting....
That day.... Is the same morning as my normal day ... Mama and papa are always busy working abroad .... They always don't have time to pay attention for me ... Even though this is my birthday....
I have never even gotten a birthday greeting from them directly, they always give a greeting through a gift or via chat ...
As usual a gift comes in the morning right on my birthday from mom and dad ....
And I guessed it was a trend item this week ... I guessed it because I opened it the first time I got a gift from them, and on my next birthday it remains the same...
They didn't even ask what I really needed ... And this item ...
"(moody) I don't need it !!!"
I took the gift and put it in my closet without opening the gift at all ... This cupboard is now full of gifts they have given me for the past 15 years ...
"Maybe I should buy a new cupboards again?" Because 5 cupboards are already full ... I thought I'd buy it again ...
Even though life is filled with luxury ... And having everything ... But that all meaningless without Mama and papa by my side ... I'm always alone ... And even all the friends I have don't need my presence ....
All they want is my money and my wealth....
I have no friends who really need my presence ....My situation.... not my money ....
"(I'm tired of all this, no one really cares about me !!)". My mood is really bad today ...
So I decided to skipped school, and just locked myself in my room ...
"(I hate this life ... I hate everyone ... Even papa and mama !! I hate them!!!! ...). I keep venting my anger, until I overslept for a long time ... then
[rriingg ... rriingg.....ringgggg]
The sound of the telephone woke me up .... But I didn't care, I closed my eyes again ..
But when my home phone stopped ... My cell phone began rang ...
(Ughh !! Who called me at a time like this?).
I took the cellphone that was next to me, and when I saw it...
It was a call from mama .... I wasn't surprised anymore, because from the first if I was naughty or made a little mistake at school ... Surely the principal would call mama and papa ....
Because mama and papa really have a good relationship with my principal...
"(grim) mama ... If I do something bad will tarnish our family good name? Is that one of the reasons why you will only contact me if I do something bad? you're so evil...." . Should I answer this call, even though I already know the question that you will ask? I kept asking myself questions, until I decided to pick them up ...
["Crystal Shin lovata !!! Is that how you treat your mommy? You've ignored my call so many times !!! Answer me !!].
And as always mama always yells at me ..... without stopping
[Crystal !!! Why are you silent? And why didn't you answer mommy's question about skipping your school today ??].
There is no reason for me to hope that you will ask if I am okay?
"I ... have no reason ... mama ... I ... just don't feel well".
["Listen Crystal !! ... Mama and papa didn't have a time to take care of your childish attitude .... You're grown up now.... You should have understood how to be good and bad ... Don't make bad our Shin family's good name... !! Do you understand ?? ]
"(You don't even care about me mama !!)". I turned off the phone from mama without answering her question, my heart feels so hurt ... My tears flowed out ....
"(sob) Why? ... Why.... why you ... Still crying ... Crystal? ... Isn't this the usual thing that happens with me .... so many times??" .
I say while crying in this silence ... Even though I'm used to it ... But somehow it still hurts me ... To accept the fact that I don't have anyone by my side...
Until my cellphone rings repeatedly ...
But I didn't care, I just turned it off ....
The day is approaching night .... I sit at the window and see the beautiful view of the city this afternoon ....
I just paused to see the view of the city from up here...until ....
"Hey ..." I heard that voice again ...
"I know that you can listen to me ...". And this time... that voice is increasingly clear .... I don't know where and why that voice came ... But lately I can hear someone whispering...
End of this chapter .... 💜
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