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(His warm hug ... Makes me calmer now .....)
Then soon Kyle let go of his arms and asked me.
"Crystal .... Are you a little calmer now ??".
When I heard Scott's words I became reminded of the past ... And it made my heart ache so much ... But thanks to Kyle I'm a little better now ...
"(smile) Thank you Kyle ... Now I'm a bit calm now ....."
I answer Kyle with a smile ...
But I didn't know Kyle's face wasn't happy at all ... He seemed to want to say something to me ....
"Crystal ... Do you remember my promise to you formerly ?"
I nodded to him ... Because I will never forget everything about him ... Be it a promise or a figure ...
Promise ... Before this happened ... Kyle had promised me one thing
(Whatever happens I will never leave you crystal... And i will always be by your side...)
That was the promise he made to me first ...
"On the day of my death and up to now ... I kept that promise ..."
"!!!" I was surprised to hear his words. I was silent for quite a while after that ...
"T-That means all this time ....."
" That's true..... "
Kyle smiled at me ...
"On the day of my death ... That day when you went to the places we always went together ... then the place I liked so much....was only to find me ... I was right behind you and followed you.... Seeing you sad for not being able to find me ....That makes my heart so broken..... "
And without me realizing my tears fell back ....I lowered my head to hide my tears from Kyle.
But I failed ... He lifted my chin with his hand...Until now our two eyes met.
And I can see the look on his face trying to smile at me ....
"I really want to try to hug you and tell you that I exist ... But I can't....even though I've tried many times. You won't be able to see "them" who are related to you ... And the person you love the most, that's the weakness of your ability to see "them" ... And all I can do is protect you from "them" who trying to hurt you ... But seeing you pretend to smile like that... It makes me hate myself so much...Everything is my fault !! "
Kyle held back his tears because I knew he didn't want to make me sadder ... But..... it just made me even worse ... I cried when I saw his face ...
"(crying) Stupid !!! Kyle is so stupid !!! If that's the case ... You're going to make me even worse !!! Haaaa ...". I cried really hard then hugged him very tight ...
He returned my hug very tight ... Until.
"Sorry ... I'm sorry, crystal !!! I can't hold it in any longer !! I don't think showing tears will make you feel better...But I'm wrong ....Sorry !!"
Kyle finally cries because he can't hold back his tears any longer ...
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Kyle is the type of person who always hides his sadness and all his original feelings by smiling ...
He never once showed his grief to others ...
formerly .....I saw Kyle who was sad at that time ... And that was the first time I saw him cry ..... Then since thas I told Kyle to be himself in front of me .... No need to hide all his feelings the same once in front of me ...
And he agreed ... He was Sad, he was disappointed ..... He was happy .... All those feelings showed me. But he never showed an angry expression at all ...
I used to not know why he was like that ... But after he Leave me ... I just realized why he was never angry at all ....
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End of this chapter !! 😊😊