She had a break down that night. She couldn't handle being in the same room with him and Guiren was hurt by the way she reacted. She was yelling at him but he tried his best to calm her down because calls came from the reception about the disturbance they caused.
He was just as upset as she was but he found a solution. He rented an apartment for her and the that same night to stay while he'd remain at heaven hills.
He felt lonely without her, all his plans seemed like they'd all gone down the drain. He spent his time in the hotel bar, quite a fancy place , a sort of minimalist-classical that was soothing to his senses as he wined down on good whiskey.
If Meilin had a chance to conquer her fear of living with a man again, she wouldn't hesitate but she just couldn't. She didn't mean to make him sad, she didn't mean to make him feel like all his efforts were a waste, she just needed more time to think.
She wanted to be a single mom, but he was tempting. She tried and she's obviously still trying to break free from the tight chains of loving someone again.
Meilin cares for him so much, if it was her old self, she wouldn't mind to give him exactly what he wanted but the fear still tugs her heart back.
But she'd try to explain to him, and make him understand even if it's a little why she still needs time to adjust.
Later the next day, she finally decided to text him after minutes of mindlessly pacing on what she should do next.
*"Afternoon Guiren, can you come over to the apartment for dinner"*
She read through the text countless times then tapped the send button. Her eyes were locked on this screen as she waited for his reply. He read it sooner that she'd ever imagine but he delayed his reply.
*"I don't want my Presence to disturb others"* She frowned as she quickly typed another text *"Please I just want to talk things out with you face to face"*
He went offline before she could send her text and she dropped on her bed. She dug her nails into it deeply before muffling her screams in it.
Time passed and she found herself on her bed once again after a stroll to a grocery store next door for ingredients. Her hand was wrapped around her phone and her eyes were a bit clouded with tears.
Him ignoring her had surprising effects. She got up, put on shorts and a large sweater then made her way to the kitchen to cook up something.
Her walk to the store was all to kill boredom and free her mind from her misunderstanding with Guiren.
She reminisced that moment she stepped into the kitchen. She generally thought she'd have an ideal spouse and would take pleasure in cooking for him and her kids, yet reality wanted otherwise.
She was supposed to cook for Guiren too but he wasn't going to show up. She'd defy the odds and act like he really is around her.
She had a smile on her face as she prepared the spaghetti with the French recipe book she also bought.
Dinner with her make belief husband. Spaghetti, cheese that melts on the tongue served with sweet blue grapes.
She served the spaghetti on the plates and placed them on the perfectly laid dinning table. She sat the children in their infant high seats and put their little bowl of pudding on the flat board attached to it.
She went back to her seat and smiled at The vacant chair pretending Guiren was there. Her heart thumped softly, slightly craving for the attention and presence of him again.
"Do you like the food Guiren?" She a felt soft touch on her shoulders "Meilin..." her brain was electrified as she heard the soft whisper of her name. "I knew you'd come..." She wanted to turn back to look at him but his nibble on her neck stopped her from making such movements.
His face was buried in her neck for minutes and his hands gradually wander to her chest "I can't hold back anymore meilin" he whispered, the desperation in his voice becoming lucid and she relaxed herself completely, giving him the chance to ignite in her.
Just her scent was enough to send him into a trance and he's waited for so long to have such an opportunity to be intimate.
"The kids" She said turning her attention the the kids that were playing with the small teddy and their spoons. She wasn't sure if it was proper to leave them but she wanted Guiren so badly.
"Meilin, don't worry about them for now okay. It'll be quick" She nodded following the mystic tone of his voice. She led him to the room where they both stood close enough for their bodies to touch.
He ran his hand through her hair, enjoying the softness from the depths of it then he lowered his face to meet with her lips.
With a laugh, she was lifted off her feet and placed gently on the bed. He smiled as he undressed her, eyes locked on her exposed skin as he bit on his lip thinking of everything he was bound to do to her.
He hovered over her, placing a kiss on her lips. Each moment made it more intense, the breathing and heart beat was just as fast.
He smiled at her lustful state, pinned her hands to the bed with his warm hands and her toes slowly curled.
"I'm going to make you mine tonight..." She heard heavy knocks coming from the door and she turned to look at it.
She realized it wasn't real. It was all a figment of her imagination. She was still in the dining room and her kids were still In the same position. Food wasn't that cold and the knock continued. Time in her dream world was fast but she wished to continue, to have the climax she hadn't felt for three years but there was no uno reverse card to it.
A tear slipped from her eye but she wiped it away as she went to answer the door. Guiren was there, hands in his pocket as they both stared at each other for a while. Funny because she was lost in a lustful place where he was making love to her and telling him that would be a foolish thing to do.
"Good evening" He greeted and her cheeks slightly crimsoned and she stepped aside for him. His voice was very similar to that of her dream and she craved for him to whisper those seductive words again.
Guiren walked over to the kids and they seemed very excited to see him. He kneeled to the level of the high chairs and kissed their cheek.
"I knew you'd come..." He nodded as he took a seat. She had a smile on her face as she watched him it. He was slightly uncomfortable with it as he wondered why she was in such a mood.
"Guiren..." Should she confess? Should she tell him the truth about her feelings? or should she just make him sad again and blame himself for the time and money he'd invested to claim her wild heart?
"yes?" He tilted his head willing to listen to what she had to say. "I want to love you, help me love you the way you want."