Meilin was dumbfounded, she gulped as he leaned in close to kiss her forehead while pulling her legs closer to him.
"Haru..." she parted her lips slightly creating way for him to lock his. Wrong...it's wrong...it's wrong to do this on the roof top.
"Let's go someplace warm" She said and he nodded as he got up "We're going home."
"Home? Already?" He made a grimace at her silly question "I'm tired. Might as well get ready for work tomorrow."
It didn't make sense. He was so erotic and seducing a few minutes ago and all of a sudden he's saying his tired.
Meilin felt disgusted by how much she was aroused from his touch. She was mad at herself more than she was mad at him.
They both got into the car, put on their seat belts and Haru pushed the start. He brought up a question or two and Meilin would give a forward reply.
He seemed calmed and satisfied. She wondered the real purpose of his actions and what he planned for them both that night.
It was close to midnight and they were quite far from his mansion. "You said you wanted to make me your woman..."
"Yeah what about it?"
"I decline."
Haru's hands gripped tightly on the steering wheel and she could tell he was letting his frustration out on it but in a second he went back to his old self.
Meilin also wanted to provoke him. She knew how much he wanted her but she didn't appreciate his tease. It was simply revenge.
Twenty minutes passed midnight and they got back to the mansion. Haru went straight to his room and locked himself in. Meilin's never seen him do that before, she wondered what he was up to. She wasn't just going to stick around and wait, she proceeded to taking a warn bath and changing into way more comfortable clothes.
She went out as soon as she was done drying her hair with a towel "Haru..." She noticed the large door leading to the vast porch was opened for the first time.
Haru was there, a cigarette in his mouth as he stared at the light coming from the guard house below. She didn't know he was interested in cigarettes, he didn't look like someone that was into those stuff.
she watched him drag and puff halos and saw the perfect shape they would form. He really looked exhausted, she wondered why he was acting so 'bipolar sunshine' all of a sudden.
It was far from being sexy.
was it the fact that she declined his offer? He was acting way different from the Haru she knew.
"You've been watching for quite sometime now Meilin...what do you want?" Even his tone was different.
"You smoke?"
"What else do you think I'm doing" She walked towards him and snatched the box "It's bad for your health."
Haru rolled his eyes as he dropped the burned out stick on the floor and rubbed it off with his shoe.
"Haru...you're acting different"
"Is that fuqing so?" he turned to leave but Meilin stopped him. "what's gotten into you?" now she was worried, he was really in a cold phase towards her. She wasn't going to free him so soon, unless he tells her what's wrong.
"Let me go Meilin..."
"I won't Haru...not unless you tell me what's going on?"
"Let me go Meilin" his voice was deep and a bit frightening to her but she didn't let go. He pulled his arm forcefully from her grip and she lost balance a little.
"Haru what's gotten into you?"
"WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO ME? I'M FUQING TIRED OF THIS. I'M SO TIRED OF RUNNING AFTER YOU, TRYING TO MAKE YOU LOVE ME BACK? THIS IS HUMILIATING MEILIN! I DON'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF ANYMORE! WHY I LUST OVER YOU...WHY I'M CRAZY FOR YOU...I'M TIRED OF IT ALL. I SPENT A TON TO GET YOU THAT DRESS, I SPENT A LOT SETTING UP THE PLACE ALL BY MYSELF BUT ALL I GET IS A DECLINE. NOT EVEN A THANK YOU!!!"
What he was saying hurt her deeply but she just listened to what else he had to say.
"YOU'RE NOT THAT PRETTY...I MEAN NOT COMAPARED TO AI JIN, BUT I FIND MYSELF DANCING AND SHAPE SHIFTING TO SUIT THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS. MAYBE YOU'RE MASOCHIST, MAYBE THIS IS SOMETHING YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND PLANNED FROM THE START. MY EMOTIONS AREN'T A BALL GAME. I SMILE AT EVERY STUPID MISTAKE YOU MAKE, THAT DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T GET HURT AS A PERSON..."
"Enough!" She slapped Haru obviously fed up with his insults "HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO FALL INTO YOUR ARMS SO EASILY. I'M STILL MARRIED HARU, I CAN'T BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU...I WANT TO BUT...BUT...I CAN'T."
He shook his head, his eyes welling with manly tears and his voice fell into a faint whisper "There's no need to anymore Meilin. I'm tired. I'm officially drained from all the bullshit. I shouldn't have interfered in your married life. My efforts were nothing but a joke. It's time for me to move on..."
He left. Meilin didn't know what was happening. She didn't understand anything that was going on. Was it because she declined? She didn't mean for him to take it personal. Once again the world she built crumbled and she was left with only the base to start from.
His eyes showed how much he meant it. He left her in spite of having sorts of feelings for him. She knew it was just the beginning of the different shades of Haru.