"I want to know what makes you happy,
I want to make you happy.
I never want to see your tears, Shi, for me, they are the most painful thing in this world."
Saying, this he kissed her forehead.
After silence once again reigned for a few moments as both of them got busy in their own messy thoughts.
This time it was Shi who broke the silence by talking first.
''I am broken Yang.''
When Yang heard her repeat this sentence again, he arched her head upwards as he stared into her eyes and once again told her.
"No Shi, you are not broken."
"But... but.... you don't even know what I am talking about."
"It doesn't matter, I still stand by what I said and will still stand by it after you tell me what is bothering you.''
Taking a deep breath, Shi finally decided to tell him, because the level of trust and support he had shown her had simply moved her heart.
"Umm....so you know I told you about the condition of my family last time."
Yang nodded his head as he tried to remember what they had talked about that night.
"So....after walking up from my coma I started to have nightmares about the accident. Each and every night I dreamt about the accident, about being trapped in that car with fire enveloping me and my mother.
I felt trapped in that memory for years and was not able to sleep peacefully for a long time.
At first, my Li grandpa wanted to bring me to the psychiatrist, but my grandma didn't agree. She thought that I was suffering from a secondary posttraumatic stress disorder and that I will get better after a while by being surrounded by family.''
When Yang heard her say this, he tightened his hold on her as he thought about a young Shi who was so scared that she suffered from PTSD.
The moment Shi felt his embrace tightening, she looked up towards his face as she tried to see whether he was afraid of her now or not.
For who would want a person with mental issues as their partner?
That's what Shi thought and tried to use as an excuse, a justification for her actions of not embracing the love in front of her.
Love in the shape of Bao yang.
When Yang heard the silence in the room, he looked down at her. Seeing her looking at him peculiarly, he asked her what happened.
"What happened Shi?"
Shi looked at him as she tried to voice out her inner thoughts.
"It's just that you looked like you were in pain, so I stopped.''
Listening to her, Yang let out a dry chuckle as he told her,
"I am in pain on behalf of you kitten.''
Yang suddenly paused as he remembered something,
"What have you done with your father and the other's who were involved.?''
Shi was momentarily surprised at this unexpected question, recovering from her surprise, she told him.
"Umm...nothing. I just had them chased out of the Zhang family. I think Yifeng told me that they were currently staying at one of their other smaller properties."
Upon hearing her, Yang felt vexed. He gnashed his teeth, filled with indignation, to hear that the people who have caused her so much harm were living peacefully.
Furthermore, when he thought about her father, he suddenly very irritated.
No. The biggest problem was the innocent woman before him.
''Shi, why are you like this, really? Why can't you be filled with spite?''
''…Huh?''
''You had to go through all that. But you still did not take any actions against them and let them live in peace.''
Hearing him say this, Shi suppressed a laugh before she told him.
"Actually, before coming back here I was filled with the idea of taking revenge, but then my grandma told me that mom won't come back even if I hurt them.
At first, I did not agree with her and was hellbent with taking revenge.
But when I actually saw them, I felt that taking away the company for which he betrayed my mother would hurt him much more.
That is why I decided to just let them go, Yifeng didn't agree with me, so the two of came to a deadlock that if they do anything to harm me then, Yifeng will deal with them in his own way.''