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Chapter 43 - Chapter 15.6 - Perhaps it is time to let all of this go?

It was obvious to everyone present in the room that Li JingHua basically just told Xue Rui to leave and bluntly asked him to see himself out of the residence. This did not escape Xue Rui as well which frustrated him even more.

'Nothing's been going my way ever since we attended the auction! What the hell is happening? And now JingHua is basically throwing me out of the house!' Xue Rui thought. 'What if they become closer while I'm not looking?!' he added as he glanced at Li XinWen, unwilling to leave.

"Why are you still here Rui? Since you do not believe me in the slightest, please leave. Why waste your time further? Don't worry, I have already decided not to include you in my plans in facing the apocalypse. It is enough that my family survives and lives well," Li JingHua declared.

Xue Rui felt as if he is being doused by a bucket of cold water the moment he heard Li JingHua's declaration. 'It hurts… I know I betrayed Li JingHua since I decided to act on my desires for XinWen, but I never treated her badly. I gave her my time and attention in all the years that we were "together" now why am I being treated like as if I neither deserve respect not affection?' his thoughts continued to run amok as he clenched his fists in frustration.

"Then what about him?" Xue Rui responded, pointing at Min XiaoYu, who looked confused at their exchange.

"What about Mr. Min? Since he believes me, naturally I am willing to share my knowledge with him. Please see yourself out Rui."

Not wanting to spare Xue Rui another glance, Li JingHua closed her eyes and turned away from Xue Rui. It was also painful for her to say these words to Xue Rui who had once held her heart, whom she had once loved, so even if she had long ago decided to let go of Xue Rui, it was still hard on her heart.

Li JingHua's words hit him like blows in a boxing match. He felt infuriated, sad, angry and hurt at the same time. And all these emotions kept building in his heart. He knew that arguing further would not get them anywhere. He thought of Li XinWen and realized that no matter what happens, Li XinWen would never take his side or even consider understanding him and how he felt at the moment.

'Perhaps it's time to let this all go?' Xue Rui thought. 'It all seems hopeless and I'll never get Li XinWen's affection, especially now with how things have turned out…'

Xue Rui stood up and took his coat. He let out a heavy sigh and looked at Li XinWen, who at that time was also looking in his direction. Their eyes met briefly and he mustered a weak smile as if to say goodbye, as if to say that he was giving up.

"Then I shall take my leave…" Xue Rui responded, his voice tired and tinged with anger. His footsteps were slow and heavy as he made his way to the front door.

'This is all hopeless… this is the right decision… let's leave before I do something even more regrettable…' although Xue Rui told himself this, he knew it was impossible for him to give up. He have already sunk deep within his desire for Li XinWen that it is impossible for him to completely give up.

Li XinWen who heard the exchange between his sister and Xue Rui looked at Li JingHua confused. According to the original's memories, Li JingHua really loved Xue Rui and if something bad were to happen in the future she should've included him in her plans. Doubt suddenly began enveloping his heart.

'Was it only because Xue Rui did not believe her? Or is there something else that they are not telling us? The way they were at each other's throat earlier, and how JingHua bluntly asked Xue Rui to leave, is there something else that I don't know? And what was that look on Xue Rui's eyes before he left?' Li XinWen wondered, his eyes lingering at the door where Xue Rui had exited. 'That lost puppy expression is really deadly...' he added with a sigh.