I saw myself falling from a swing .

oh my daze I woke up.

saw my mom for the first time

if you ask me I would say I saw her for the first time because

I felt like I just understood and was now conscious of what was going on in my life.

well this is getting boring let's fast forward my life to my primary school moving.

do I attended one of the worst but social primary schools

I can't forget I saw him

Juwon

my lord he was butiful

he had this thing can't really describe it up until now

I came out of the class

because I was looking at him through a window

And my God he saw me too

for the first time in my life

I was conscious of how I looked to him

in my mind I was wishing human beings Minda could be hacked.

And for the first time I think I knew in my heart that Juwon liked me.

we played like children I tell you

and I felt happy in my heart.

but then my arch nemesis then fabs

even though we're friends we kept on liking the same people even though I liked her for being my friend I couldn't just stand up to her.

it was like she could control my actions but not my thoughts.

I can remember the day we were all at the playground I saw Juwon

I really didn't want to embarrass myself

so I started singing one of wande coal's old songs

Though it didn't help because he thought I was singing to him.

in my mind I wanted to say

Juwon the world doesn't revolve around you snap out of it.

but then I was a child lost in the ocean of thoughts.

I couldn't arrange my words

so I shook my head and forgot all about it.