Why won't she respond? Does she like me or just playing with me? Damn, I can't get her out of my mind and it's messing my rationality out. She should have defended herself right? Why can't she tell me the truth then? Is she really cheating? No, Harue's a good girl she can't possibly do that with me by her side... but what if, she really does cheat?
I may just avoid seeing her for a while this afternoon and settle things tomorrow or I might change my mind and make things worst. Sigh, this is all making my mind muddled. I'm thinking too much...
...
I went to have a sleepover on my best friend, Shiro's house since he said his parents won't be home for a while and asked me to accompany him for two nights. Quiet a scaredy cat eh?
I was just about to ring the doorbell when suddenly the door was opened and I was pulled inside. Everything happened so quickly that I didn't realized I was already in Shiro's room
"W-what?" I managed to blurt out. Shaking my head, I stared at Shiro who was grinning widely for God knows what reasons are.
"Oi, what's the matter with you grinning like an idiot. Plus pulling me so suddenly like that is quiet startling huh. If I would be the one doing it to you, you would have screamed like a girl already..." I complained as I scratched the back of my head.
"Sorry sorry haha. So what happened? Give me full details, don't let anything left out!" Oh, he asked eagerly.
"What do you mean 'what happened'? What am I supposed to explain?" I asked, confused.
"Don't act as if you don't know it!"
"I have no idea really"
"Fine, I'll give you a clue. You've been sighing a lot this afternoon which was unusual, considering your cool and carefree attitude. It's only the second time you did that, so like in the past it was quite a big problem!" He explained. Oh I get it, he's asking about what happened this afternoon. Sigh, I really can't hide away form my best friend eh?
"I think... she's cheating on me..."
"WHHHAAT? Cheating on you? Dude, have you gone insane? How could such thoughts barge into your tightly locked head!?"
"Sigh, I really don't know anymore. She just... doesn't want to answer me... I think she doesn't like me at all, and loves somebody else"
"You've been together for a year already and tomorrow would be your 2nd anniversary, yet you're still doubting her?"
"No, it's not like that... I mean yeah, we've been together for a year already but... I haven't even heard her say 'I like you' or 'I love you' to me at all, now I don't know what she really feels"
"C'mon you've pursued her for God knows how long now you've been dating her for almost 2 years. Are you giving up on that? I thought you're smart but hey, you're dumber than me now"
"Thanks for listening but... it's up to me now. I'll be meeting her tomorrow afternoon, and I think, I'm breaking up with her. That would be better..." Before Shiro could respond I added.
"Let's go to sleep, we need to wake up early or we'll be late for school" I said as I covered my head with a blanket. Sigh, this will be a long sleepless night