Winter approached, aspiring for any living creature out of their shelter on a chilly midnight of Colorado streets had barely any possibilities.Especially where I lived! On one of those marvelous days where the authentic pleasure of winter could be felt nevertheless, which could even freeze one's body untill it loses its breathe and gives up on living more I preferred to sit on a roadside bench resting my head on my lap, my arms around my jointed knees and legs literally dipped inside the inches of snow which was leveling up every minute.
It was all out of atrocity.
The only things my mind roared inside my head at that point was 'WHY AM I SO EASY TO GET SWINDLED ?' , ' WHY ON EARTH EVERY SHYSTER FINDS A WAY TO ME ONLY ?'
I didn't care about the snow which was slowly but steadily stacking on my back freezing it simultaneously, even my legs were senseless by then but that didn't matter at all, my mind didn't let me get rid of the incident which happened last night, it was stuck on my head like a leech sucking my senses and blood.
Minus then minus now, the temperature fell down every them and now. I could feel it, the snow flowing down my veins. Soon, my vision was slightly blurred, my brain faltered to work, senselessness crawling up to my whole body made it senseless too, each and every wisp of my eyelashes were frost which made it harder for me to open my eyes.However, I somehow managed to keep it open but I didn't know for how long I would be able to do it.
Certainly, the mechanism of my body needed regeneration or else it would never allow me to move and force me to lollop and die right then and there. Apparently, I needed to wait for someone to come for my rescue. A saviour. Hardly making little waggles from the help of my butt I wondered when was the last time I found myself in such a woeful condition where I wished for someone to come and help me through. No doubt I was a fool expecting so but for certain I had no other choice.
It was nothing like I was really fond of living I went there to die, possibly no one arse's around on such sort of night, but deep down my inner concious nagged on me to live rather ordered me to 'LIVE!'.
My eyes couldn't bare the heavy wisps anymore my eyelids forcefully shuttered down. I didn't know what to call it but I was slowly dragged to the point where I stood in front of the mirror getting ready for 'his' birthday party checking each and everything I wore and carried , I made sure I looked flashy. While I was getting ready Manila wrapped the gift for me and handed over it to me when I was about to leave. ' The Broadmoor ' I repeated the place's name around thousands of time while recalling its address. I reached there at no time standing at its entrance I phewed on my shoulder extolling my driving skills and thanking my mom who taught me driving on such an extent speed. " Hey! Iffy " I heard a voice which came straight from my behind I turned a whole 180 degree to see who it was. One clear view of the person standing in front of me made my eyes iridescent I ran straight to her and took her into a hug, after suffocating each other for a long time we parted. " Long time no see, Nin! " I said almost shouting out of excitement she nodded in assentment. I had tears on the edges of my eyes which I tried hard to withhold but unfortunately was unable to do so, it trembled down to my cheeks making it all wetty. " hey...hey are you 'cryiinnggg' " she said sarcastically emphasizing on the word 'crying' .
Well, that was an obvious reaction I expected from her because the last time we met 5 years ago to exchange our so called last goodbyes she was about to leave for Canada with her daddy and I pretended to be strong and non-effected by her going away from me (she had always been my bestfriend this fact can never be denied )and was successful in withholding my tears but as the days passed I solemnly felt her absence which made me gloomy and absent minded day by day but thanks to Jake 'my boyfriend' who came as a ray of happiness in my life and turned it upside down pillaged each and every worsen thought running inside my mind and made me a careless and happy girl once again.
Ending my nostalgia I came back to the present state where I was standing for real in front of my best friend "No... dammit!" I said resentfully pretending strong but how could I hide my feeling from the person who knows every inch of me. "Okay my fault I am dreaming, perhaps." she said considering me sap with those words. "Chap! let's stop arguing on foolish things now." I whinged on her making faces which I always did when she is with me. "Yeah I need to tell you so much of things." she chirped. I nodded in affirmation and we made our way through the entrance blabbering on the whole journey to our destination. As soon as we reached the party hall my eyes hastily ran through the whole cavity to find the person I came for but he seemed to be nowhere. I pulled my phone out of my purse to make a call to him but the very next moment I saw his figure appearing from the restroom's exit his one glance was enough to enlighten my mood and curve my lips. Before I could do anything to make him notice me, a girl from his backside pulled him closer to her, his chest brushed against hers intimately and soon both were kissing on my surprise he was kissing her back. I was enraged and broke too it felt like somebody ran a truck on my heart not twice, not thrice but more than quadruple times the odious play going on in front of me felt like a knife severely piercing through all the dreams I dreamt of with him .
With no further thinking I walked up to them making each and every step a loud thud. Grabbing him by his collar I blustered "You cheat! How could you?" He rubbed his forehead as if trying to remember who I was "Ahhh-Iffy?" he lour his voice like a sheep and asked. "Yes Jake." I answered painfully. On a sudden realisation he immediately held my hand tight with both of his and plead putting on his crocodile tears ''I-l swear on you I didn't mean it its like...it just happened at the heat of the moment. I know you can never doubt on my loyalty. Would you? You believe me right?" I preferred not to utter a word and swereved my eyes and glared on the little witch who stood beside him perfunctorily. "And you--" before I could spit whatever I felt like for her I was mid interupted "Dont even think of picking a quarrel on me, you bitch! you know what you did? You spoiled the romance going on between us." After hearing what she said I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. I just pulled my hand out of his grip which he withheld and popping the shit out of him through my filthy words which I myself didn't know that I knew I left the room leaving everybody in awe even Nin did't try she knew I would'nt listen to anyone. I left my car and ran straight to whichever direction I didn't know, I wanted to be lost. Lost forever and never be found.