As of last chapter I announced I have a kid. My daughter means a lot to me and I want her to have a better life than I had. That being said, I've had to fight to be in her life. Just last year, I've been to court and lost the case. The only good thing that came from this is that my daughter can't be kept from me anymore. This is a huge victory for me but it doesn't feel like it. Not after thousands of dollars spent and being put on child support. Not after trying to see my daughter and getting ignored or being told that I'd cause confusion for trying to come see my daughter at school. The damage is already done. The wrongs I've been put through already happened and all I have to show for it is that she can't be kept from me. I thought child support was for bad father's!? I thought the courts would see a father trying to be in his daughter's life and take that into consideration. I just wanted shared parenting and couldn't get that. 50/50. No. I guess I don't deserve that in the eyes of the law? I really don't understand how there are dads out there that wouldn't go to court for their kids or fight for them and I'm getting treated just like them. I've changed diapers, I've been to appointments, I've been there for my child, when she's crying, when she's happy, when she's tired and fighting sleep, when she doesn't want to go to bed on time, when she wants snacks while we're grocery shopping, when she didn't know how to ride a bike so I started to teach her with training wheels, When she needed baths and didn't know how to take showers, when she wanted to play Xbox with me at 2 years old and I gave her an unplugged controller so she could play with me. I've been there. I'm still here. I don't deserve 50/50 custody evidently, though. See it's real easy to forget that I bought her the first pair of shoes she ever had, That I bought her LeBron's that she loves to this day, That I provide for her LIKE I SHOULD. That doesn't matter because why? Our system is jaded? Our system will choose a woman over a guy regardless of any circumstances? I have 0 proof of this besides my word but the mother was stealing money from me so I couldn't bring it up in court. She's telling me the phone bill we shared was 220 and it was really 180. I'm paying the whole thing. I finally see a phone bill and realize, hmm, She's been taking me up top for 40 dollars every month. What about the time she tried to run into my car because she ran a stop sign on purpose? What if our daughter was in the car!? The list goes on. Like the time our daughter thought her boyfriend and her was fighting and cops were called? She dropped our daughter off at 1 am btw. I didn't say no, I gladly accepted my daughter and will accept her at any time. What about the overdose.. You know what, I think you guys get my point. All I want is to be in my daughter's life. Just leave me alone while I be the best dad I can be.
So don't ask how my daughter is doing or how I'm doing because I'm going to lie to you. I'm good. She's good, she's getting big. Blah blah blah, small talk that is pointless. I'm not going to take this much time to explain how I get the short straw in every situation and how my daughter is being raised by people that I have no say in whether or not they can be in her life or not. People who decide to leave and come back when it's convenient. Don't ask about my visiting time and if I get to see her. I do. I take care of her while she's with me and pay for her when she's not. This whole situation is frustrating and there is nothing I can do about it.
Sorry for the long rant, This is a topic I rarely ever speak on. I never get to say much on it so writing, it just flows. There's no one to say hey, you shouldn't feel this way or be nice or it'll get better or blah blah. It's a refreshing feeling because I can actually tell my side of the story. I can be vulnerable and upset and angry without someone trying to shut it down right away. I'm human, I feel these emotions just as anyone else does. People just don't like when I express them. Some people think I should be happy with my situation and accept it. No. You accept it.
Speaking of accepting things, why does my job think it's ok to schedule me when I'm supposed to be with my daughter? Why do they think they can treat us however they want and we are supposed to accept it? Why do they think it's ok to pay us nothing when they get paid so much? My brother and I made a song about it. Working is one of the biggest scams out there. Yeah, you get paid, yeah you get benefits, Yeah you have to work 40+ hours a week to get a decent check. No, no, no. That's not how life is supposed to be! I'm working hard to get next to nothing! I could sell bath water and make more than what I make now! That's ridiculous! I know my worth and it's more than this. I don't know you, my wonderful readers, but you are worth more than that! I don't know who needs to hear this but look inside your self, ask yourself "am I really happy with my job? does it pay me what I'm worth?" If you answered no to both questions then we are part of the "some money is better than no money" theory.
Keep this in mind, I'm not trying to sell anything, or recruit you or anything like that right now. I'm just talking to you, like we're face to face. I do not accept society's norm of working all your life, not being able to retire, dieing poor with nothing to show for it, while in debt.
This is the part of the conversation that people I know don't want to hear, so heads up, if you are one of those people who don't like talking potential or improving your life or trying to help others then stop reading now.
....Are the trolls gone? The nay sayers and, dare I say, non believers? Ok we'll get started.
I had a guy tell me that he'd rather get paid 11 an hour the rest of his life instead of possibly becoming rich. Some money is better than no money right? Now I have a couple problems with that and here is why. 11 an hour is above minimum wage, yes. 11 an hour the rest of your life? Factor in inflation and cost of living and ridiculous rent prices. Factor in a car and car insurance and food and gas. Factor in electric and water. That 11 an hour is evaporating rapidly. You'll be forced to find a new job that pays more, just to be able to pay your bills! Keep in mind I didn't say internet or games or things you consider fun. All of that will be the first to go if you're trying to get them bills paid. Also, some money is exactly that, some money. It'll never be real money or 7 figure money. Sure, you can get paid 6 figures, in my current working situation it'll take about 17 years, countless 55 or more hour weeks, destroying my body and never seeing my child. Are these things YOU want to go through to get to six figures?
I'm at the point in my life where taking a chance to get rich isn't the worse thing on my list. Staying the same and having the same struggles for 50 to 60 years sounds way worse to me at this point in my life. Maybe I'm different than most, maybe it's too hard for most, but for me, I'd much rather spend my life trying and failing. When I die, I'll be in the presence of God with no regrets. This doesn't mean I can do it all myself though. I'll need a ton of help if I'm to succeed.
I'd love to be in a position where I can offer people a better lifestyle and pay. I'd love to be able to grow my community and offer high paying positions to people. At the same time I'd love to provide quality products and services to people to help them succeed or just enjoy life more and be happier. In my opinion, I know what's important and that's the people. Take care of your people and they will take care of you. My vision is so large, wholesome and do-able that the only thing missing is the funds. The best way to explain it is that I have a heart of gold and a sickeningly positive outlook on life :) With that being said I also want to say that I'm not a dumby either. Kindness shouldn't be confused with weakness.
Now keep in mind I've said a couple things that might confuse you guys so let me clear things up. I'm still not asking for anything from my readers (besides read my story), I still can't stand jobs and yes, I have the best intentions for others, not just myself. I'm one of those people who doesn't have change so I'll give a person a 20 if they need gas. Yes, I've done this before at a gas station. The guy probably hustled me because I'm pretty sure he went to the next person asking for gas money still. That's between him and God though. I did what I could to help someone I thought was in need.
My goals in life are as simple as this. Make a ton of money, make other people a ton of money. We invest and spend wisely while also using that money to enjoy life. Let's hang out with each other, watch anime, play some games and hang out with our favorite cosplayers. Let's play some basketball or do a big twitch live stream together. Let's jam out to my brother's music, he mainly makes beats but we recorded a couple songs too. LET'S ALL GET TOGETHER AND MAKE OUR OWN ANIME! THEN TURN IT INTO A GAME! Then we can all rock our own apparel and sell merch to people who think what we made is cool! That's it, rinse and repeat. Sponsorships and things like that will come later down the line also.
I don't understand why people think this is impossible when there are companies doing this right now. Probably paying a lot less than I would too. If it were me, I'd pay my people more based on a percentage. If we as a whole make 1,000,000 at least half is going to my people that helped. The other half would go to things like advertising, (20k) my share, (200k) and the rest getting reinvested to make us all more money. Keep in mind that these numbers wouldn't be yearly. This would be a per project basis. If we can crank out 2 projects a year, that's 6 figure payments to people I love to be around and have fun with, but my goal is 4 projects a year. I'd try to pay the people more though, as much as I can without sinking our money ship. I'm just not greedy, money only means so much to me, while the experience is what matters to me. Projects can be anything also. It could be dlc, music, a game release or new anime. It could be an anime convention or our own version of E3. This would all be based on my thought process of maximizing profit and minimizing cost. My thought on that is buying 1 time purchases that can be reused. Computers, programs, and such. For example, an animation app can be bought once (a lot are free) and you get many uses from it. Also, not spending a lot on advertisement but having a strategy in place instead. Just think if we make the next Fortnite!? We're talking billions of dollars now. Over half going to the people that helped make it. That's me, that's who I am. That's my word and I stick to my word. If I say I'm going to do it then I'm going to do it.
Ok! We know a lot more about me now! I haven't been weaving a story to you guys so I hope you don't think this sucks. I'm more talking to you than I am story telling. I've probably scared away all the trolls and believers of job life and that's ok because this isn't for those people. This is for those dreamers out there that believe in magic, dragons, witches, wizards and storylines. This is for those people who can't wait to howl at the moon or suck their victims blood straight from the vein, the way mom use to do it. This is for those warlords out there, who have never tasted defeat and sit on a throne of their enemies bones! This is for the people who believe in ohana means family, and family sticks together. This is for Sommproductions family! Where people can join us in being themselves and making a living from it.
Right now, all I'm asking of my readers is to read my story. In the future, I'll be looking for those dreamers, those warlords, those pirates and dragon slayers. I'll be asking the question of how can we benefit each other? Are you willing to work together to make something bigger than all of us? Are you willing to have fun while getting stuff done? This is what I think of as a dream career and this is what I'll be asking of people, when I am fully ready to make these things happen. As for right now, I stream on twitch and would love to chill with you guys if you choose to come hang out with ya boy. sp_dsomm23 is my twitch. So come chill and drop a follow and talk to me :)