Come to the light

"What was the point In this ?... why are we so naive in our youth?... how did I not see-....." I tremble as my eyes slowly open,focused on the ceiling fan spinning in the same annoying pattern. "Nate!!!!" A voice came from the side of me,a familiar pitchy,soprano of a little girl or in this case my little sister. "Nate please wake up .... auntie xiha is coming and she's wants out room spotless for the open house today!!". I pull the covers over my head and silently curse the day my mother gave birth to Wendy. "Leave me alone Wendy!!" I roll over and lay face down. "Please nate we need to clean!!!" Her hands stroke my back as I pull the cover off of me and sit up, tightly gripping them . "Don't touch me Wendy..." I throw her hands away from me and sighs. " but mom says treat everyone polite and the world will be right-" I grab her shirt and shake her. " mother. Is.dead!!!!!!! What do you not understand... you killed her!! " my face flushes, leaving a pale angry expression except my eyes which are boiling red with anger and the tears filling up to the brim. "B-but ... I didn't mean to n-nate it was an a-accident ..." I don't know why I blame her for the death of our mother but even the doctors think the "baby" had something to do about it to much blood loss I guess.I drop her to the floor as she Bursts Into tears in front of me . "Why can't you be more like mom" I say brokenly, was eyes spilling over with tears. " but she's de-" I interrupt " yeah I know " she runs out of my room and down the stairs,bawling like the crybaby she is as I fall back in bed and let the guilty pleasure of sleep find me