"Where is he?" someone in the other room said with a growl in their voice while I tapped my claws against the exceptionally well-carved wood. Only myself being present to enjoy my self-made music as everyone else was in other parts of the dorm, rightfully putting space between me and them.
"Where is who?"
"You know who I am on about!" they growled out with greater anger before they were then likely gestured an answer. Leading them straight to me who had begun to move away from the room before they then got in my way and stopped me. And it turned out this person was Vadei. But why would she look for me?
She hadn't looked for me before...
"Okay, answer me this very carefully. Who are you?" she asked with narrowed eyes and slightly bared teeth while I nervously kept my distance. Even if she made she to keep that distance small.
"I am Bug... I am Osibindah... I am what is left of one Nin Urtuan." I mumbled out in response. Having nearly just answered as saying I was 'Bug' but switching it out for what was actually said.
"Where are you from?"
I then sniffled as I began to think of why I came here to begin with before my eyes began to feel like they would water, "I am from Tobaballe..."
"What do I call you?"
"You call me Ho... The last name of Iishar Ho, one of our Spire-Lords. Tower-Ladies?" I said to her before clawing at my shell as I couldn't quite figure out the answer towards the end. Seems like I was just forgetting some of the information I should have known well to the point of it being nearly unforgettable. Yet, I suppose that was the catch. It was only 'nearly,' not flat-out impossible.
"So it is you... How in the... By... How are you alive...? Let alone yourself...?" she then said in an utterly flabbergasted tone while she looked at my eyes. The last signs of my former humanity that might as well not have existed anyway. After all, I was a bug now, bugs had no need for humanity.
"Funny story..." I said as I patted my claws together before picking up a knife from its holder. Making silly little sounds as I slid it harmlessly across my chest before then doing the same to make blood. Finishing it all off with a sudden limpness and tongue roll out.
"You actually died...? So Vapooliar did, in fact, kill you?" she said, seeking clarification which I nodded to.
"I did, I then met all the gods and goddesses after Undwote brought me aboard his father's ship. Did you know, it has no sails or oars? It just has these four things that shoot lightning." I told her before making finger gestures for it.
"Are you drunk?" she then asked before she sniffed my breath, recoiling away in disgust before she then put some distance between us.
"I am not... I have not even had a glass of water today..." I mumble to her before looking at the place where I could get both right now. Only to look away from it and back to the knife I was holding. It was a large knife indeed, one that had a slight glow to it from the magic it had on it altering the way it cut. The blade was warm too, so maybe it was to slightly cook what you cut?
A fancy blade indeed... Nice and strong with plenty of gripping space to land a firm hand. It was even narrow in point so I could easily use it for more than just cutting. But what would I use it on...?
"N-Nin... Are you alright?" Vadei then asked me in what must have been the first case of her ever actually showing genuine concern for me as her eyes watched the knife I was waving about. I shook my head in response as my eyes began to let loose tears I had originally not even noticed before I then looked up at her.
"I don't know..." I told her as my tone lost its form and turned into a more childish one.
"Hey... WAIT!" she then screamed out before the room we were in was suddenly filled with shards of broken knife along with rattling items. All from the force I had used to try and punch that knife straight through my neck. And while she looked on in horror while backing away, I stared tearfully at the knife before I dropped to the floor and started sobbing.
Curling up into a ball while carving apart the flooring in an effort to get together some shards to try and kill myself with but none of it worked. Then, I did what I thought I would never do again in all my life. Something I had never thought would even be a thing. I don't think I even had ever actually done it given how detached I was from my family due to how growing up in back home worked...
"I want my mummy..." I sobbed out in tears while hiding my face. Occasionally lashing out at anything near me. Soon crawling away into a quieter part of the building while that spiteful tailed creature watched me. Likely wishing the same thing everyone else wanted of me here...