The cool air, the scent of rain. The city lights glow around me like fireflies. This is my last night. Finally. The world seems so far away, like a distant memory. I sing my song under my breathe. I breathe in deep. This song to me and for me.
🎶oh i hope some day i'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years🎶
i hum along closing my eyes. i can feel my mind go deeper and deeper.
🎵isn't it lovely all alone heart made of glass my mind of stone🎵
🎶Tear me to pieces skin and bone
Hello welcome home🎶
The breeze seems to carry my very being away. I guess its time. I step up on the ledge. Feeling everything around me with out being present.
"ok"
"HEY! YOU!!ARE YOU GONNA JUMP OR WHAT!!?"
who...
i don't even bother turning around. how pointless
"Yea....you gonna stop me? Tell me something encouraging or something?"
"Nah i just wanted to watch but you were standing there forever. If your gonna jump then jump."
Thats messed up. who says that. I look over my shoulder to see who this weirdo is. I see that she is a few feet away with her hand in her hoodie pockets. Her hair is various shades of blue. She has on all black from head to toe. Its dark right now so i cant see her face very well.
"what?" she askes
i turn my gaze back to the city
"do you even know the reason Im here? why i want to kill myself... its because life is empty and meaningless. its a neverending cycle of eat, sleep , school. Oh right but now schools over. There is no purpose now. surviveing to survive isnt enough. But what else is there. So i guess why not stop playing the useless game of life."
i hear foot steps come closer
" JESUS! are you done. that almost mad me puke. That was so cheesy. whats your name loser?"
are you serious how rude. i turn again and see she basicly right beside me. I can see now her amber eyes and molasses colored skin. And also the expression of pure curiosity and playfullness.
"Elliot why?"
"just cuz dude"
hmm shes weird
"you know what i think Elli?.....
Elli??
....i think you dont actually wanna die. nope you dont wanna die. but you dont know how to live. And not knowing what to do can mess you up. I think you wanted me to stop you but i didnt. so you stalled by giving me your lame monolouge on why death is the logical path. You want someone to tell you its worth staying alive. Life sucks in my opinion. My point is its seems you need a new reason to live and thats the only reason we are talking."
Reason to live again? Really? i step down from the ledge and look at her searching her eyes. she returns the gaze never faultering. it feels like she can see right to my core. i look away.
" well elli since your obviously not gonna die. come and keep me company on my adventure. you can die along the way if you want."
what the hell? she starts to walk away and after a few seconds i begin to follow. what am i doing?
"oh by the way my name is Phos."
i look up and see. her smiling at me with her hand out. i take it in mine.
here we go