After that night, Xiu Mei was completely vulnerable.
She didn't know how many times she tried to kill herself. Every night, she would see herself sitting on that chair again, or see herself underneath of the kidnappers being violated by them.
She would wake up screaming every night, completely frozen in fear. And then her hallucinations would start once again. She thought that Ying Yue was watching her by the foot of her bed, mocking her weak self.
She would imagine Ying Yue loathing her, blaming her for what happened to her.
Why she was safe, and she was dead.
She questioned herself too, why was she not dead too?
Why was she left to live?
