I finally reached home and there was nobody, as usual dad wasn't home yet. My dad is a business man so, we are very well off and I've had all the luxuries of a great and amazing life, but only if I can enjoy them as much. I would rather stay with my father who's getting more and more busy these days than be all alone in this big empty house. The only unusual thing about today was that, even Mrs Smith, our house caretaker was nowhere in sight "Hello? Mrs Smith..are you there?" I called her name, i thought maybe she was in the kitchen but I was wrong.
I directly headed to my bedroom and changed into something more comfortable. picking up my phone, i quickly dialled dad's number, it rang for some time but he didn't pick up, he must be busy like always i shrugged. the time was already 3 o'clock, I was very exhausted by now so I started getting towards my bed to have a small nap but then It suddenly hit me, it's wednesday today!
Oh no! How can I forget about it?
It was already really late than my usual timing so I got ready as fast as possible. I went out but even Patric was not there. So, I had no choice left but to drive myself to the cemetery. I reached there at three thirty which was twenty minutes late than my usual timing but wasting no more time I placed the new daffodils I got for my mother on her grave replacing the old ones, I usually do it every wednesday.
This way I feel more connected to her, I feel like she's very close to me, like she's really just sitting there next to me and I can tell her everything that's on my mind. It not only keeps me stable but also helps me a lot to face all the problems i've to deal in life. I wish, she was there with me, I wish that I had someone to share my problems with, I wish, I had gotten to know her more and I wish, I had her by my side especially whenever my minds has those dark thoughts. as usual just thinking about her filled my eyes with tears, how unlucky I was to not have the only person in my life who could have understood me for who I was!
I talked to her for a while, telling her about all those things that happened in the last week. I knew she must be smiling listening to how dad tried to cook for me and almost burnt the whole place down.I turned around to get the candles and her picture from my bag which apparently I found broken here, last time I visited and then I placed them on their right position, when I was placing the candles on her grave, I felt someone's presence behind me, like someone was watching me. So, I turned around again and more quickly this time, and there I caught a glimpse of Aria, who was looking at me from a good distance.
What is she doing here?
I waved at her, but instead of waving back, she looked startled and started looking here and there. Aria is my classmate and the only girl I talk to sometimes at college, only person who apparently doesn't make fun of me like others. Even at college I didn't get to acknowledge her today so I walked to her.
"Hey Aria, What are you doing here?" she didn't replied to me. "Aria.. are you okay?" I felt a bit weird, she even looked a bit strange today, like she has gotten more paler than she already is.
"You-you, you can see me?" she asked with a shocked face.
"Of course I can! i mean you know I'm not blind... right?" i chuckled trying to lighten her a bit but she didn't even smile and was giving me this weird look instead.
"Ah..yeah.. sorry. Umm.. I was actually just passing by...so I came here to visit my grandma, yeah my grandma" she shrugged and looked rather amused now.
"I was visiting my mom, and you weren't in class today?"
"Right, I-I was actually not well today, so I just went home" she said with her eyes down.
"Are you good now?" she looked up.
"Yeah.. I'm good now I wa--" she stopped in mid way and her expressions changed in a split second of time "Cris, I'm sorry but I've to go, I'm already very late" her whole face turned white, like she had seen a ghost or something!
"It's alright, I was leaving too, come on I'll give you a ride home?"
"No! I've to go right now! Try to understand-d" she was panicking and this whole time her eyes were fixed somewhere else, it felt like she was frightened by something or someone. I tried to look around and behind me but there was nothing, no one.
"Aria is everything al-" Just then my phone vibrated indicating a text from dad saying he was busy and now he's waiting for me at home.
"Sorry, I was saying are you- " I looked up and there was nobody in front of me, she was nowhere in sight.
Where did she go this fast?
It was very strange of her to leave like this, I too got my things and drove towards home, once I parked my car outside, I headed inside and saw dad who was already sitting in the living room watching something on TV.
"Hey, you're back!"
"Hi sugar"
I was gonna head upstairs to change into something more comfy when his next words stopped my feet to move even a step up. "I'm sorry for your friend." He said with a sad tone.
"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.
"You don't know?" he looked kinda shocked.
"What?" I was getting nervous now.
"Aria, your classmate, she passed away yesterday. Poor soul, her body was found under the bridge all injured. Some say she attempted a suicide but there are some rumors it was a murder. She was taken to hospital but she couldn't survive-" and I couldn't hear him any longer, my grip on the bag tightened.
No! This isn't happening again!
Not bothering to hear anymore I dashed upstairs to my room. I could hear dad calling my name behind me but I couldn't care about anything right now. Throwing my bag somewhere, I quickly got inside the bathroom and splashed water on my face continuously. Not wanting to believe any of it, I thought of confirming it myself and opened my laptop getting inside my bed. I opened her wall, and there it was. My breath got hitched.
"RIP Aria..."
"She was an amazing soul that god took with him"
"You'll be missed pretty lady"
"She didn't deserve it, the almighty would punish whoever did it to her."
"You'll always be alive in our hearts. RIP Aria"
And it went on. I wasn't dreaming, I knew it, my nightmare was again repeating itself. She is dead!! She is not in this world anymore! And the worst thing of all, she passed away yesterday, and I just came back after talking to her! It happened again!
Why does it have to be me?
I again felt helpless and alone, I couldn't say anything to anyone, I again have to suppress all of that in myself like I always do! This is my life and I've got no one to understand me, no one!
To escape these thoughts and the world, I shut the laptop and got inside the blanket to let darkness take over me.
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