I was laying down on my bed again. It was already midnight as I could see the sight of the moon at its highest. My blanket was covering my body as I didn't want to get up. However that puffball of a fairy was still there. The more I looked at it the more I felt irritated.
But once more I couldn't sleep. I was sitting up with my knees tucked near my body, rattled and confused. It was hard to even think straight. Yet my stuff were just at the opening of the tent. Again more visions. More images of me cutting people in half. All of them being infested with those creepy parasites. I kept on hacking them one by one as they came at me. There was no end to them. Eventually I ran up the stairs but soon as that happened the vision stopped with my hand raised in front of me.
My hand slowly tightented as it reverts to its tasogare form. I was frustrated and was about to slam it at the ground. But I grip my wrist instead as I slowlt revert it to normal. I wasn't gonna get anything done with the pace where this was going. I then get my equipment ready and suit up.
But as I was fully equipped, Kenshin and Furukizu stood in front of the exit of the tent. "You do realize the moment you do this...there isn't any going back, right?" Furukizu questioned.
"Let's just get this over with." I said without emotion.
"Rin! Think what you're doing! There has to be another way!" Kenshin protested.
"It's better this way. Nobody gets hurt. Besides, hasn't been like this before?" I questioned.
"But think of your friends! Do they honestly wanna see you suffer alone?!" Kenshin fought back.
"That's why I'm doing this. The quicker I do this the less they need to worry. It has to be done." I told him.
Kenshin then blocks my path. But without a care in the world I just kept walking. Kenshin's results did nothing as I passed through his body. There I unzip the tent and go out of the tent with the invisibility cloak. Everybody was around the fireplace. Some were at the fire and others were in position. Quietly I passed through the crowd. But as I was about to go out the campsite, I was stopped with a horizontal spear.
Holding it was Gram. He then uses it to take off the cloak off my body. "Did you really think you would go past us without getting past my heat receptors?" He asked rhetorically. I was circled around by my friends and colleagues. "What's going on here, Rin?" Rebecca asked. "I have to go somewhere. I'll be right back." I told her.
I attempted to walk past them but to only have a blade pointed at my neck. Richard was at the other end of the blade with a dead face. "You're not going anywhere." He said. Rebecca then points her shotgun against him. "Rebecca, stand down." Mr. Williams said.
A gun was then pointed at me behind my head. Mr. Williams was ready to pull the trigger. "Old man...what's going on?" Tyrell asked confused. Sakuya then appears behind Rebecca and Tyrell. She then pours some chemicals at the grounds, to form small golems made from mud and vines. They then link to each other to immobilize them and they fell on the floor.
"What are you doing?!" Rebecca questioned them.
"You're just gonna get in the way in what we're gonna do to you." Richard said.
"So you're in this too?" Tyrell asked Mr. Williams.
"We need to bring you back. He need help." Mr. Williams told him.
"We already agreed to it all of this! Why do we need to trap us here?!" Rebecca demanded.
"Because you'll get in the way what's going to happen next." Richard said as he cocked his pistol.
The rest of the group had weapons ready. All were equipped to take me down. "Rin. Stand down and get back to the tent. We can help you." Mr. Williams told me.
I was infuriated. My fist were clenched and angry. I was getting out of control. "Yet all this time you knew about all about me! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME ANYTHING?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME ABOUT SORA! YOU COULD HAVE HELPED ME!" I demanded to be answered.
"And how should I help you? Lead you again to a life as a tool?!" Mr. Williams talked back.
"I was haunted by these memories! Everyday of my life seeing blood drop from centuries, only to seeing bloodshed everyday without meaning! Do you think I enjoy my brain being messed up everyday?!" I overreacted in mania.
"You can't do anything for the gods if you are like this. So let's just quit this mission and get you some real help." Gram said.
"I know where I need to be. The fae are gonna help me." I told him.
"The fae...? Are you insane?! They almost killed you!" Richard mouthed out.
"They need me and they can help me with these memories. I'm getting tired of this redrum rerun." I told them.
"Rin, we have to stick to the plan. You are in no shape to make any decisions." Sakuya told me.
"Well I haven't been making any of those. All this time I've been following and doing as I am told, to hope that there might be some answers to whatever has been happening...but instead everyday I see the same bloodshed in my sleep with no reason what so ever!" I shouted.
"But Rin what will happen if you won't be able to handle those memories? You can't even stand up straight." Sakuya said.
"I need answers. I don't even know who I really am!" I rant, "I'm hated and yet I'm needed. People look up to me and yet I'm a freaking murderer. And for some reason I chose to be the devil. THIS DOESN'T MAKE ANY FREAKING SENSE!"
"Yet you can't force yourself to do this!" Mr. Williams asked.
"Why do I mean so much to strangers I barely know! How am I so important to all of you! I can barely remember anything past my massacre at the dojo back at L.A.! It's so confusing!" I cried out loud.
"Rin calm down!" Mr. Williams insisted.
"You won't even call me by my real name! How much are you gonna hide from me, old man?!" I shouted.
"I was trying to protect you!" He shouted.
"From what?! I don't know anything even past that massacre at the dojo!" I cry, "I try to see what you see in me but everything is always red! I don't even know who I am!"
Rebecca and Tyrell looked at me shocked. Rebecca then had a face of grief. "Please Rin...tell me you remember what you told me at the rooftop!" She stuttered as tears went down her eyes. My head started to ache. Flashes of mixed memories come in. The colors in were coming in so fast...it was hard to tell. But the screen goes blank. I could hear two voices mixing together in a fuzzy fashion. It was hard to hear. It was a teenage voice and my current voice talking in unison. My teenage self was speaking in Japanese while my current self was speaking English. At the same wave length they said, "No matter what happens from here on...let's do our best to become better."
Better? Better?! What the hell do you mean by that?! I was never getting better all I was doing was getting worse! I was becoming unstable and slowly transforming into my tasogare form. I didn't know what to react. All I could do was feel sorrow. "Do better....how am I supposed to get better?! All I've been was getting worse!" I rant in a crying frenzy, "What good parts of me are there?! All I see is me screwing up or killing something! What is there to look up to?!"
"Sora...please don't say that! You are not that!" Sakuya pleaded.
"I was just a lapdog to the clan and you know it! They never accepted me! All I did was kill and clean up their mess!" I shouted.
"You're wrong! You were more than that!" She shouted.
"What was I then?! Why was I willing to become a devil?! Why did I become a tasogare at my teens?! Why didn't I belong?! Why was I so hated?!" I shouted out with mania.
"Rin! Calm down! You're losing it!" Richard shouted.
"Calm down?! I'm not calm! Why do you need me to help you so much when I can't even help myself!" I shouted.
I kneeled at the ground and broke down. Tears flowed like rivers. Tyrell was paralyzed as he didn't know what to do as Rebecca started to cry. "Everyday I feel confused and don't know what to do as I don't know who I am!" I cry even more, "I try to cope and deal with the pain, but no matter what I do I can't adjust anymore! Why did I kill?! Why do people hate me?! Why did I have to suffer it all?! Why did I have to deal with the pain?! What was I even fighting for?! What's the point in remembering if I'm hated by life itself?!"
I screamed and bawled as the pressure was too much. All that I felt from the memories I have obtained. I just needed to know. Why was I even doing this? Why did I need to do the things I've done? I couldn't handle it. My head was a mess and I could feel something. I could feel my left arm being wet. I was hallucinating blood was flowing from my wrist. My mind felt like mush and light. I was going to faint as the pressure was getting in my head. Deaths everywhere from each death I've caused kept on soaking me. Why did people need to die? What was it for? What was the reason for all I did?
But then I felt something. It was Sakuya hugging me. She was crying and holding me hard. "I'm sorry...I'm Sorry!" She moaned. Her voice started to crackle, vocal cords stressed and can barely move. "It was so hard..." She says in Japanese, "I couldn't be strong enough comfort you...the more I tried...the more I kept on crying." A memory started to synch. It was of a girl with hair up to her shoulders with an apron. She would always hug me every time I came home. Everytime I was stressed or tired, she was comfort at my side. It felt warm. Soon comes Shizuka in a ponytail. "Oi...Shizuka! You shouldn't hug him like that! You know how dirty he is after every job?" She reprimanded. "But that's how I always greet nii-san." The girl with an apron said.
"She's right you know." I tell her, "Shizuka, you know how dirty I get when I get home."
"But you always look down when you come home. Don't you like it when I hug you like that?" She asked me.
The girl left a smile on her face. My head turned away and I didn't know what to react. My cheeks were getting heavy. Was I flustering? "Well...if you want to I don't mind..." I hesitantly replied. My body felt warm and I felt so happy.
Sakuya then looked at me with a raised eyebrow. There was something in her expression. "Why did the most dangerous slayer in the country had to have a heart of a maiden?" She questioned.
"Can I at least have a moment?" I talked back.
"Just look at you! You're getting fluffy over getting hugged by your step-sister! No wonder you're still a virgin!" She teased.
"Hey! Quit it!" I shouted all red.
In then comes somebody younger than me. He had blonde hair and a crew cut. "Great...more mushy stuff..." He moaned in distain. "Yo Kenji what's up?" I asked, dispelled.
"Can you not flirt with my sister when you come in?!" He shouted pissed.
"What the hell did I do?!" I shouted.
"Everything! It's like a freaking shojo manga here!"
"It's not my fault you can't get a girl, ya yankee!"
"Oh shut up you damned siscon!"
"Loud mouth ass!"
"Sword crazy virgin!"
What was this? Why was I so happy? The more I watched the more I was interested. But soon as the vision ended, I was at the house with the halls in ruins. There I cut myself with a sword. I could feel it running. In then comes Sakuya at the niche of time. They kept on calling my name but couldn't respond. They called for the hospital as I was letting out blood. What could have happend for me to go into such lengths? What was going on?
But the vision stopped there. I was back at the current Sakuya's arms. She was crying but then I notice something. Her hamd was raise high. She was holding something. It was an ofuda talisman. It started to glow green.
That's when I pushed her. As soon as I did, vines appeared from the paper charm. I barely managed to escape her spell's grasp. I rolled backwards with a cartwheel. Sakuya then draws out a weird gun and it spews out liquid. Wild vines start to twirl out wildly. I started to cut them one by one. But the more I cut the more they started to increase. She kept on shooting at the floor. The number of vines started to be overwhelming. But I soon stopped cutting as I went on to sheath my sword. I then quickdrawed my sword with Majinken. All the vines were cut at once and my sword continued to glowed.
I then dashed towards Sakuya in an alarming rate. My reflexes then took over as I was starting to dodging the vines and slash them at once. Sakuya then changes cartridges and shoot a green acid from her gun. I then swerve at the side and started to run at the side. I then slide to get a rock and threw it it at her leg. She lost her balance but some of the acid was pouring upwards. I then pull out a barrier charm above me to block the acid and threw a knife. The knife hit the gun and flew out of her hand. There i dashed towards her then time stopped. I saw an image of the younger Sakuya and her smile. "Don't do anything stupid onii-san!!!" She said in a cheery manner.
The vision then stops and I hit her at the stomach with the pommel of my sword. She then falls in the ground, stunned. Then for a finishing touch I put a stupor talisman on her head. She soon becomes our of focus and she lands at the floor. Sakuya soon starts to cry as she loses consiousness. "Shizuka onee-chan...I'm sorry." She said in Japanese. I then catch her before she hits the ground. There I here a cocking of a gun. "Rin...stand down." It was Mr. Williams with the desert eagle conversion at hand.
His eyes were dead serious. They were locked with all sights on me. "You up to something? Old man?" Richard questioned.
"My daughter Lilith warned me that, if he ever struck his own...that would be the time I have to put him down. Guess that time is now." he told him.
"Is that so...? I guess your daughter is one hell of a pushover then, huh?" Richard joked.
"Less talk. Get your boss. I'll handle Rin." Mr. Williams told him.
"Oya oya...what makes you so sure you'll be able to handle him?" Richard questioned in a playful manner.
Mr. Williams then takes out a headband and wraps it at his arm. It had an emblem of a chariot with the number 7 and a sword pattern. "Ara....so you were in the Arcanium Society. Figured there might have been something special with you. And a slayer to boot." Richard laughed.
"Get your boss and the rest outta here. It's gonna get messy." He said.
"So you're just gonna take him alone?! Are you insane?!" Gram shouted.
"This isn't a place for a teacher to be. Let the professional handle it." Magna said.
"Ara...didn't expect you to say that." Richard reacted.
"The Arcanium Society has been making sure magic and Aria has been secret from Terra for centuries. He's more capable than us." Magna replied.
"Is that so...then you come outta thin in one piece then make sure you leave a bit of a fight for me then, old man." Richard replied.
"Kids are so disrespectful now adays..." Mr. Williams commented.
"Okay...focus on the prize, Richard." The orc reminded him.
"Gotcha. Formation: Quick Flash." He commanded.
Magna then gets a single barrel shotgun and shoots at me. I block the shot, only for me to slice a beanbag. But something was wrong. The insides were quartz crystals. With a snap of Richard's fingers, the crystals started to glow bright. But soon a flash of light burst from those crystals and gave a blinding glow.
I was soon disoriented and temporarily blind. Eventually my vision came to and Sakuya was being snatched away with the rest of my companions. "We'll be at the second camp. If you don't come back in ten minutes we'll come for you." Richard shouted at Mr. Williams as they ran away.
"Good. that means I don't need to hold back." He said.
As soon as the rest were outta sight, Mr. Williams cleared his throat. "You know I never thought this day would come." He says. "But Lilith has a thing with fate and I trust my daughter."
He then takes out something. It was a wooden case made outta bamboo. It looked familiar. I soon realized that I made him that for his birthday. He used it for his pencils whenever he needed to make his map. But he empties out the case of his contents to find something. He draws it out to be a piece of paper. It was a thin wooden tablet written in red ink. "I'd never figured to be using this ever again."
He then breaks the tablet in half and it glows a bright green . Something was happening. I don't know what it was. If this was a game...I think I would be fighting a boss now. But I felt uneasy. This lime light wasn't just scary but also concerning.