"Dear why are you crying, quickly tell father" Mu Yinan sat on by side of her bed and wiped the tear off her cheek
"I'm fine ."
"Then come have lunch with us " Shen Yue went to the other side of her bed .
"I'm not hungry " She said after staring into Shen Yue's eyes for a while longer .
"You're making us all worried just eat a little" Mu Yinan tried to get her to come down and eat something.
"I'm really not hungry "
Even Mother mu was racking her brain to see the reason why this child wont want to eat.
"I get it now . It's because you didn't go shopping yesterday isnt it ."
Mother Mu said angrily
"So that's why you're kicking up such a fuss. You are so childish and made us all worried for nothing." Mother Mu said then left the room .
"If that's the reason then father will take you out shopping today just please eat something dear . "
"I don't want to go shopping, and I dont want to eat either, I'm sure grandmother will just give me Xiner's leftovers anyway so why go down to eat "
Shen Yue felt even more guilty .
"Dear tell me what exactly happened I wont force you to eat anymore or to come out of your room I'll just leave you and let you read, just tell me "
She hesitated for a while, but then she agreed .
"Yesterday when I wanted to go shopping with mother but grandmother wouldn't let me go, she said I should just use Xiner's old clothes and she wasn't going to waste money on me. Dont I still deserve new clothes too ? how come Xiner gets new clothes and I don't or is it because you all adopted me or is it because we're short of money ? I know that's not it because we eat well everyday. If grandmother doesn't like me then take me back to orphanage, why keep me ? It's clear grandmother doesn't like me"
Her face was already filled with tears as she explained everything in between sobs. It wasn't a good feeling to not be cared for, to have no one to love you. She hated herself for actually calling them mother, father and grandmother.
They probably didn't care if she ate lunch or dinner yesterday they waited till this afternoon to act. In the book she read, the parents were so nice and treated their child so lovingly and did everything to make them happy. Why wasn't she treated in such a way ?
Everyone was silent and looked at Xinyan who had tears in her eyes on the bed .
"Xinyan dear ... " Shen Yue tried to calm her
"Dont call me Xinyan or dear I'm not your daughter , I'm not Mr Mu's daughter either . The name Xinyan is for your daughter and My name is 3 not Xinyan . If I were really the daughter you wouldn't have waited 14 years to come get me back !." She said in between sobs,slowly and sadly. Children weren't adept at hiding the things in their hearts. More so for a simple child like Xinyan who wasn't exposed much to the world outside her orphanage.
Children bullies she wasn't related to, she could deal with. But how could she handle the family she had always wanted and hopef for and prayers for, not loving her the way she thought.
Her hopes had been dashed very harshly.
Everyone felt really bad they really let her down. Xinyan covered herself under the duvet. Mu Yinan was disappointed at himself. Ever since she came back, he got so busy with work and didn't ask about her much. She was his daughter, he should have tried harder.
He couldn't say anything and neither could anyone else. A flash of determination flashed in Mu Yinan's eyes and he left the house with the car without looking at anyone in the room.
He would prove to her that he really loved her.
Everyone slowly left to eat their breakfast except Shen Yue. She felt really really bad . Only she and Yinan knew that Xiner was not Mu Yinan's daughter but he would go to any length to make her happy, yet she couldn't take care of his daughter. The only true child of the Mu Family.
After some minutes Xinyan came from under the duvet and went into the bathroom she washed her face properly and cleaned it with a towel. Then she slowky and carefully picked up all the books on the floor and arranged them neatly on the shelf before taking one and continued her reading she didnt even talk to Shen Yue or spare her a glance. About 2 hours later Mu Yinan came back with lots of bags and various desserts they were brought in by the helo and placed on her bed . Mu Yinan truly felt bad. The daughter that wasn't his enjoyed new clothes while the one that truly carried the Mu family's blood had to wear the fake daughter's old ones. Not that he didn't love Xiner, he hoped to treat them equally.
Shen Yue had been there since unable to say anything to Xinyan. When Mu Yinan came in she couldn't even look up to see him.
Mu Yinan came closer to Xinyan
"Dear, mother and grandmother made a mistake, it doesn't mean they don't love you, everyone loves you. I love you very much, look, I got you lots of new clothes and sweet snacks. You deserve the best and although we did not bring you home till now it also doesn't mean we dont love you. Dont make us worry anymore just eat a bit okay. "
Mu Yinan said as while patting the top of her head.
He had a gentle expression and handed her a box of cookies with some fruit juice that the help was holdinv. She smiled a little.
What he said really touched her.
Plus she was a child and a foodie too. She wouldnt hold grudges for long. Sometimes people would say 'actions speak louder than words ' but for her even the simplest of words had a large effect.
She had the tendency to overthink things. Maybe they did love her, it was only right she gave them a chance after all, they took her out of the orphanage and were willing to love her. She gave Mu Yinan a hug then she ate the cookies since she was really hungry.