My name is Lillian Quinns, 16 and a sophomore in high school. I was walking to school ( Hell ) now. In my defense, there is no difference. I hate that the people in the school well just my grade really, too judgemental with everyone just because they aren't popular - a bunch of heartless hypocrites. I don't like any of them; most of the people are jocks who only care about themselves.
I was in my last class doing my work while the teacher was organizing the art stuff - markers, and pencils, etc. I noticed something on the floor, got out of my seat to go pick it up and get a closer look - pins, push pins to be exact. I picked them up, don't want anyone to step on them- that would hurt. Not that I wouldn't mind certain people to step on them or anything.
I tapped on the teacher's shoulder. " What do you want Lillian?" I don't like her tone, what did I ever do to her? " I found these on the floor and wanted to give them to you." She exclaimed frustrated," Why can't you just stay in your seat?" " I didn't want anyone to step on them and get hurt, would throw them away but I thought you might need them." The teacher rolled her eyes
I don't blame her. You know you want people to get hurt. Make them feel the same pain we have to go through.
Shut up! " Whatever Lillian just get back in your seat." I interjected," But Ms. Valen, what do you want me to do with the pins?" She narrowed her eyes at me and said," Ms. Quinns if you don't get in your seat I will send you to the principal. " The situation was then left alone by me going back and sitting down. What got her in a bad mood? Was it something I did but don't know? Maybe she's just had a lot of stress of her today and didn't mean to snap at me.
'Didn't mean to' my ass. I don't care if she's a teacher or not. Disrespect me again and I will slap her.
No! Don't slap her and get out of my head!
I will slap her and you can't stop me.
What did I ever do to deserve this - a voice in my head, a demon I can't get rid of. Just please don't slap Ms.Valen, Shadow.
I still can't believe you named me that.
There's a good reason for that. The bell cut me off. I raced out of the classroom to my locker. Don't get me wrong, don't exactly like school but I don't exactly hate it either. I just had to get out of that class before Shadow made me do something. I got my backpack and started to head to the bus. On my way, someone forcefully bumped into and made me almost fall. I looked up to see the head cheerleader smirking at me - Samantha Knight.
Oh, look if it isn't little miss queen b -
Let's not get aggressive now. " Do you need anything?" She scoffed," Watch where you are going next time, don't want your germs on me! I could get infected!"
Like your the one to talk. You can't seem to keep your freaking legs -
A rush of power came through me," Excuse me? You ran into me and if one of us is infected - It'll be you. " Her face got red - red definitely does not work for her. " This isn't over Lillian!" She stormed off. " I think it is bitch." Shaking my head I began to walk to my bus again. We should get paid for having to deal with them; It's hard enough not to start a fight.
When I got home I went straight to my room and unpacked my books - My writing books. I went to the kitchen to get a snack. " How was school?" I sighed," It was ok. " " What happened?" I said quickly," Nothing, just have a headache. " Wasn't completely lying, my head does hurt a bit. The reason I didn't tell her about what really happened, was because the last time I told her something the whole family knew and kept wanting me to talk about it - never going through that again.
I went back to my room after taking some headache meds. Laying down on my bed listening to music was calming for me, so that's what happened until five when got up and went into the living room." What are we having for dinner?" My mom said," Anything we can find in the fridge. " I mumbled an ok and walked into the kitchen. My sister was in there fixing her something.
She gave me a dirty look. I said," What?" She didn't say anything just went back to fixing her dinner. I got what I wanted to eat," Can you move please?" She just stood there. I said," Um move please." She still didn't move.
If she doesn't move -
I pushed her slightly. She yelled," Don't push me!" I said," You wouldn't move." I heard my mom say," Lily don't push your sister!" I growled slightly- frustrated, " I didn't! I was just trying to get something to eat!" It always ends up like this - one of us yelling. I try not to yell but my anger gets the best of me - sometimes, nowhere wants me, or that's how my emotions make me feel like.
I went back to my room and started doing my homework. Ms. Valen gave us a lot of homework - in my opinion anyways. It was 7:30 by the time it was finished, I kept dozing off while trying to finish it - my mind just wandering off. My mom came into my room and said," Come take your Hydrazine. " I always had to take it - helps me sleep. Without it, I always wind up waking up pretty much every hour.
I was just laying in my bed - the medicine takes an hour before it takes effect. My mind began asking these questions that I honestly can't answer. Some of the questions are like, Why am I still here? What did I ever do to deserve all of this? Would someone care if I die? Would anyone notice if I was dead? Is what everyone says true about me? Shadow usually only answers these question and I'll admit, they aren't very nice responses. I mentally sighed as my eyes closed, letting sleep overcome me.