The path they took seem to be longer than usual, when they finally reached the door, Alejandro opened it with a smile.
"It's nice to see you again Selena. I miss you," those words sounded low and deep in Selena's ears.
Her eyes looking down the floor lifted and saw his face, the smile he had, and his black pit eyes, everything that happened on the island, the good days they spent together flashed in her mind.
She gulped hard, forcing her lips to smile but, she just can't. Somehow, a part of her doesn't want to give him false hope.
She gave a nod, an emotionless one.
"Maybe we can get coffee next time we meet." Alejandro's bright smile stayed on his lips.
"I have a question,"
Confusion flashed in Alejandro's eyes, he nodded and jammed both hands in his front pocket.
"When did you know that you love me or like?"
Stunned by her question, Alejandro took his hands from his pocket and lay it on Selena's shoulder.
He moved his face closer, "I don't really know when it started, all I know is I missed you when you're not around and what I did was wrong. If I only knew that I would lose you, I wouldn't have done that," he pulled back, hands lowered on his side and a smile full regret pasted on his lips.
She never asked him why he did it and now she wants to know why.
Collecting all her courage, Selena parted her lip, "Why did you do that Alejandro? Is it really because your mom asked you to do it?"
Alejandro took in a deep breath, looked at the road and watched the car passing through before he replied, "honestly no," he turned to look at her.
"But if I give you the real reason, would you give me another chance?"
Would she? Selena asked herself.
Then without knowing, her head shook by itself.
Alejandro understands her, so he gave his reason.
"I did it so my mom could convince my dad to talk to your father. You're a Su Selena, I want to make sure that my family is willing to support me before I ask for your hands."
And those soft words brought tears in her eyes, falling on each side of her eyes like rain, guilt, and regrets consumed her heart out.
"You're a good man Alejandro. There was a time where I thought you and I," she paused, heart tightened, "anyway, what happened between us is cruel I should have listened, maybe if I did, we wouldn't be standing here," she sniffed, blinked and the last tears in her eyes dropped.
If she just asked him for the reason that night, maybe, just maybe, her heart wouldn't completely fall to Killian.
She knows to herself that since the day she met Killian, he left a mark in her mind, and it slowly found a way to control her heart.
She was lucky that Alejandro came in her life, it helped her forget whatever infatuation she had from Killian but after their break up, all the hesitation disappeared that night and her feelings came rushing back like a river.
Alejandro might have used her to gain something but she's no difference since she also used him to forget Killian.
She didn't want to risk for Killian, unlike Alejandro, offering her a peaceful relationship, she assumed Killian would only bring heartaches to her.
In the past months, she tried to squeeze herself to Alejandro, knowing that she can have a normal life and that he wouldn't betray or cheat on her.
But she was wrong, caused she was betrayed by the Alejandro while Killian had done nothing but to ease her heart, he might have not told her that he loves her but she doesn't need to hear it. Killian has been around her, protecting her despite all the harsh words she said to him.
Once again, she found herself in the same situation she was in years ago.
"I hope you can find someone that will love you for who you are. You are a good man Alejandro; you should find a woman that won't love someone else."
"I see, I didn't know that Killian really did find his way into your heart."
Confused with his words, Selena looked at Alejandro.
"What do you mean?"
Alejandro gave his answer but, the sound of the police wail has made it unable for her to hear it.
She was about to ask again when the police car stopped in front and let out Barney in his uniform.
"Selena, is the Café close today?" Barney asked.
She nodded, she often meets up with him since he always drops by to the cafe after work, and since he's here now, she realized that he must have finished his shift early today.
"Yeah, my uncle had an emergency, so I am alone right now," she smiled comfortably, whenever he's around, her mind felt at ease.
"Is that so. Alejandro, what are you doing here? Are you two back together?" Barney asked casually.
Alejandro shook his head, "no, I just dropped by to say hi," he turned to Selena, "I will be going now," he said and left Selena and Barney alone.
"You didn't reply to me this morning, I was worried," Barney said with concern, and seeing the small pout on his lip, Selena smiled.
"I was busy. How's work?"
Barney wrinkled his nose and took a photo out of the front pocket of his shirt.
"Murder, murder, and murder. It's kind of tiring to see corpses every day,"
Selena faintly giggled, "please I have a real human skeleton in the kitchen, and the attic is full of skulls."
"Yeah, I still can't believe it. Anyway, how's your day?"
Selena pouted her lips, feet walked next to the glass wall of the café and squatted on the floor. Barney did the same, though he needed to adjust his uniform as it was too fitted.
Selena and Barney have been like this, they will either talk face to face or over the phone just to ask each other how their day went and it became a routine, something they were both comfortable to do.
"Well, I am pretty exhausted."
"I am all ears, Selena, I could use a distraction today after seeing the teenager chopped body," Barney replied, Selena, didn't hide anything from him, even on how she was not a real Su and how much she wished she was.
Selena leaned her head against the wall, looking at the orange sky above.
"Today is really exhausting,"
She blew a sigh, lifted a hand in the air and started to enumerate what happened to her today.
"First, Killian proposed."
"I got scolded by my cousin's teachers."
"almost got stab with a pen by Killian's psychotic ex."
"Then I find out my uncle left me here alone."
"My real cousin showed up which really shocking since she kind of look like my mom."
"Then I met Killian's boss, told me that he's good in bed,"
"My dad is here; he didn't know that Alejandro and I had broken up so he asked the guy when is he going to marry me."
"And lastly, I am starving."
She gasped for air, suddenly realized how messed up her life was.
Her face lowered to her knees hugging them tightly.
Barney lay a hand on Selena's head; he could see the struggles she's facing right now and, he wished he could help but he can't do anything than to soothe her.
"Do you want a burger?" he said.
Selena lifted her head, turned to her side and met Barney's eyes, "no pickles?"
Barney chuckled, "yes, we will ask them to remove the pickles."