balintataw: the pupil of the eye
Tomorrow will be the day I'm going to school. My worst nightmare is having loads of projects. But I guess I'm used to it already. I had a brief look back on the past. And this one image passed through my head. It was an image of me smiling while I stare at my crush.
I have forgotten who my crush was back then. I thouroughly searched through my head for any images. Then I found the person. I suddenly started crying.
Because this guy was like a brother to me. This guy was the guy who supported me till the very end.
I lost track on where he is now. I quickly searched 'Doyle' on facebook and there I found it. I used to stalk him a lot! I would talk about him everyday I get to school. When I see him I would scream!
I walked to my bedroom and lay there. Repeating the same name over and over again. I couldn't help but scroll through what he was doing. And I saw this one post, it said. "Do you ever miss someone, and just scroll through your chats with them?" and he captioned it 'HAHAHA well yes..' It was posted recently so I decided to put a sad react since I felt the same.
Then just about 3 seconds after, my phone kept notifying about something. So I checked on what it was. And there I saw that Doyle still remembers me. He texted me:
-"Heyy Kid!"
-"Helloo Doyle!"
He quickly replied.
'Are you ready for Grade 11? BTW what strand are you taking?"
I replied with.
"STEM! 💜 Just like you! When you were grade 11 ):'
It took him a few seconds to reply then he said.
'Good luck kid, always know Doyle still remembers you!'
This touched my heart and I just realized that I haven't had a crush since him. The last time I forgot about him was just yesterday.
Every time I would go shopping in malls, I always felt like I was looking for someone so special.. Everytime I walk to school, I would always look sad without knowing. 'WHY?'