my struggle story

jab mai 12th class mai thi tab muje realise huva ki muje kuch aisa kaena hai jise mere sath dusoro kai like bhi kuch accha Kar suko.Mai kafi emotional hu jab bhi mai kiss old man ya kiss baache ko dekhte ho tu I feel very bad for him mai apne tarif nahi Kar rahi hu.jase Jase class end Hui mujme ias bnane ka jannon savar hota ja raha tha.12th class see phali Maine kabhi Socha nahi that iske bare mai.and when result come my mind was divert in different things because I belong to a middle class family and I don't have father alsotu mere mom chate hai ki mai jaldi see settle ho jao or mai banking ya for ssc cgl ki preparation Kar lu.Maine kafi bar unko btaya bhi hai ki mai ias bna chate hu par unko lagta ki mai ye nahi Kar sakti ku ki muje 12th mai 80.6% marks mile hai or ias bnane ka liye mai hard work nahi Kar sakti.mai unko kaise samjo ki jab mai duso ka dard dekhte hu tu muje dard hota hai.isle mai bhi Socha liya hai ki bna hai to ias abhi muje iske bare mai complete information nahi hai par muje pta hai ki mai ye Kar sakti hu chaye kiss ko mujh par trust ho ya na.I can do and I will do.