Ever felt like you're floating somewhere but don't know where, you're trying to open your eyes or move your body but can't do anything except feeling like you're drowning. That is exactly what I'm feeling right now.
Hold on.. Where am I anyway?
"Doctor, I thought she got through it? Why isn't she waking up yet?"
Who said that?
Who's not waking up?
"Baby girl can you hear me, please wake up, oh my baby, I am so sorry."
Wait a second what's going on? Mom? Is that you?
"Rain honey it's mom, please darling open your eyes."
Mom! I can hear you! Mom I'm right here.
Hold on where is right here?
Mom?! Please help me.
"Oh Frederick it's been months, why is our baby still like this?"
What do you mean mom? Mom I'm just right here. Mom I'm alright. Dad?!
"I know Beatrix, but let's not lose hope yet, she'll get through this. She is our little girl. And she is tough. So don't worry too much."
Dad?! Please I'm right here. Dad I'm okay, I think.
Dad? No no no no I'm blacking out again. No?! Dad?! Mom?! What is going on? I don't understand.
Why am I here? And where is here? What happened? I can hear my parents but I can't seem to touch them nor let them know I hear them. I can't even see them nor open my eyes for that matter. I'm met with nothing but empty darkness. How long have I been in here? What is going on? What happened to me?
And silence, all this time I've heard nothing but silence. And seen nothing but darkness. I've been drifting through this void. No destination, no where to land. Just emptiness where ever I think I looked. I don't even know how long I've been drifting through this dark void. Don't even know when I've began drifting in this nothingness. Though there is one thing that keeps coming back in my head, that is "I have to get away. I have to take away this pain."
But what pain? Why I wanted with all my being to get away? Get away from what? From where? I don't know. All I know is that these thoughts are the only thing keeping me conscious. Conscious in what way?
There are times I can glimpse a light. A fissure of light, just a tiny bit. And I can hear voices, though I can't really make out what they were saying. I tried reaching out, but every time I do, the light fades away. And I'm back to floating in the darkness.
"When will I ever get to get out of this seemingly endless void?" Is what I find myself asking in the void. And as expected I am met with nothing but silence.
For so long