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Indiscernible screams were the only thing I was hearing, and intense anger was filling me. I wanted to hit something but couldn't. I was holding it in.
"How can you be so shameless! Don't you have at least a bit of conscience." I was screaming.
***
Tears were streaming down my face. More screams even louder than before filled the space around me. Anger was turning into hatred, or to be more precise it was waking the hatred that was deeply buried inside me.
"Have you forgotten the past?! Well, I didn't! I will never forget, nor will I ever forgive! I will never forget all that pain and sufferings that…"
I continued screaming for some time.
***
Then I was sitting in my room trying to calm myself, while constraining tears' flow to the best of my ability. At the same time, irresistible feeling of loneliness was devouring my heart and only increased the mental pain I felt.
"Friends? What are those, when you truly need them?"
I was staring outside the window while sitting in the room. No thoughts were in my head or at least I was doing my best to empty it, in hopes that pain will leave.
Thoughts of suicide were breaking my will, but I will never succumb to this. Suicide is an easy choice, to live that is truly a hard decision to make.
*I open my eyes*
There was no sudden jumping from the bed or screams. I was sleeping and then I just opened my eyes. So, nothing surprising happened from outside, but inside I was filled with remorse and sadness.
'Interesting, it's the first time I am having a dream about my past. Seems like letting go of your past is just a story for naive kids.'
*Sigh*
'I strongly believed that I let go of it and my anger has subsided, but every time I think about it or remember my childhood… I feel pain, hatred and loneliness. That causes rage to boil inside me but anger is never a good thing for a sane person. I need to focus and forget.'
I sat and decided to save in case I will mess up my day due to my mood dive.
〖Save ⟳〗
I checked clock.
6:12
Pretty early, huh. Whatever I don't want to sleep anymore, so might as well get up.
I put my clothes on. Because, I had only mantles in my inventory. Those were the only clothes I had. Thankfully clothes under mantle were included into the set, so I just took off the mantle itself. Although it does not cancel the fact that clothes I had were bland and boring.
It was a long sleeved black loose shirt with similarly black loose pants. Some shoes, underwear and socks.
As soon as I am getting money, I am buying new clothes.
I went to the kitchen and saw nobody there. Apparently, Granger's had a little vacation thanks to daughter return and a whole family decided to sleep longer. I might as well prepare some breakfast for the family. I checked in fridge what food was available for cooking.
After seeing all available ingredients, I picked eggs, bacon(cooked), bread, salad, milk and some butter.
I mixed eggs(liquid from them) and milk. Checked for spices, but there wasn't much. That was a big difference compared to how I cooked before. My kitchen always had at least 5 types of spices. Anyways, I put some black and red pepper, salt and mixed it thoroughly.
Took out a pan and started heating it.
Then, I made sandwiches from bread, butter, salad and bacon. Poured a little bit of oil into the pan. Then, I found metal pincers and using them I soaked sandwiches in that mixture before putting into the pan and covering it with a lid. I was frying on small-to-medium fire and after a few minutes I flipped to the other side and continue frying under the lid. Then I fried it on sides for a few seconds to make it crusty and make sure it will be cooked.
I did the same for all sandwiches I made. After that, I covered a dishes with food, with aluminum foil that I found somewhere in the top shelves, to make sure it will remain hot or at least warm.
Next I put a pot with water to boil for a tea or coffee depending on who wants what. I spent half-an-hour on that and by that time I saw Hermione's mother wake up and coming to the kitchen from a second floor of the house.
"Breakfast ready and is waiting on the table. I wasn't sure what will you prefer for breakfast, so I went for something simple. Hope you will like it. Tea or coffee?"
"Um… tea?"
"Found only green one. Heavy or light?"
"Medium, I think…"
"Okay. A minute please."
"You know how to cook?"
"But of course. I woke up early and had nothing to do, so I decided to make breakfast for everyone. I ate already by the way, so you can begin. Here's the tea. Let it stay for some time before drinking, so that tea can give taste to water."
"You are truly experienced with it. Almost feels like you are a chef." Miss Granger smiled.
"Hm? Am I? Well, I don't know. After all, the greater our knowledge increases, the greater our ignorance unfolds, so it's hard for me to perceive my own skills."
"Wise words, young man." Mister Granger said, while entering the kitchen.
"Thank you very much. Have a nice breakfast. I will go out for some light training. In school I have completely forgotten about training the body, consumed by all that new knowledge" I laughed embarrassingly.
"Oh. Okay. Have a nice training I suppose."
Both adults looked at me looking amused and interested.
"Thanks a lot."
I exited the house, without changing clothes. And started running while trying to remember all the locations I was running through and mapping it inside. I was running slowly to warm up and not get myself too overworked.
I am growing, thus healing fast, but still it's not an anime where you can push your body without limits. After all, human is incapable of regeneration. Rip or damage a muscle and you are in a big trouble. Therefore, I will take it easy and slow.
Also, running allowed me to obstinate from all evil thoughts and emotions, at least temporarily. However, at one moment I heard a scream.
"Help me! Help…" I heard woman's shout.
"Shut up! Nobody is going to help you, now."
'No way. Chance to vent my anger, right when I need it the most? No way, I will miss it. Sorry guys, you can only blame you shitty luck for meeting me.'
I had no idea if I had the 'Trace' on me, but it was as good possibility as any to try it out to see. Granger's house is far, at least 5 kilometers away, so I think Hermione won't be a suspect if I use some magic.
I used quick and temporary transfiguration to change color of all my clothes to gray while moving my hand over my face at the same moment and equipping the mask. Honestly, I have no good reason to move my hand like this, but I felt it will be flashy and satisfying to do this, so…
I also equipped bracelet and entered nearby alley where scream came from. Thanks to bracelet, group of people there didn't notice me yet.
'Perfect. Let's do this, quick and nice. Empowered Fumos'
Smoke veiled whole alley in its clutches, me wearing all graying mixed in perfectly in that smoke. I started moving to seek my target.
Any man silhouettes were my targets.
First. My right hand tightened into a fist and then my fingers sprang out as if some force from inside my fist forced it to unclench in the direction of that first target.
'Flipendo!'
He flown away and struck a wall, which I hope knocked him out. Power of the spell was tripled thanks to the sneak ability.
Second target.
'Flipendo!'
Third one, was just about to turn in my direction when I struck him.
'Flipendo'
I did not find anyone else, except for a woman silhouette on the floor.
I left the ally, same way I entered it, while un-transfiguring my clothes and moving my hand over my face once more, but this time to stove away mask into the inventory.
Some may say, that I should stay and help damsel in distress, but I would disagree. I am not some kind Samaritan. What I did, I did for myself to vent anger and frustration I felt. Helping a person was just reason to involve myself and not the main goal.
Anyway, I continued my running.
I am not completely calm but smashing people with magic still allows to let some steam out and I also can expect this experiment's results soon.
'Ah! Feels nice.'
*No progress made*