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Chapter 17 - CHP 16 : PAST & REGRET

FREYA'S POV:

While driving the jeep to the Coleman home where all the rich aristocrat lived brought back the memories of childhood I smiled bitterly remembering it. I accelerate my jeep towards the mansion where it is located next to a big villa maybe of Russell's.

When I reach the mansion door I see the security has already opened the gate, I drive through the parking lot I see two posh cars. I already know whose cars those.

Now I understand why grandpa was calling me frequently and urging me to come home. these habit of grandpa never changed he is always trying to bring our family together but he knows better than me that by doing this he is giving me feelings and bitter experience which I felt when I was just 14, the days I spent time looking for that family will come and find me and take me home.

I close my eyes and feel the bile juice in my throat remembering those days.

I know grandpa is getting old he wants to enjoy the remaining days with his family…. but now after going past all those years I feel that I don't need a family grandpa is just enough for me, but somewhere deep inside my heart I still longed for those feeling of being called home.

I sigh and look at the window of the 1st floor where my father Dominic Coleman .By looking at him my heart trembles before that incident my father was my superhero. I was always the daddy's girl he was the one person in my heart I would always look up to. I used to follow him everywhere even to his office while he is to sit in his big chair while I always was fascinated by those big things . From where I looked he was like the big hero who will destroy all the evils where I will always be safe. I used to say to him.

"Papa when I grow I want to be just like you "

While remembering those past I smile bitterly hero….my papa was not a hero…. I know he had difficulty that he couldn't protect me but after experiencing those past he didn't even care to make it up to me he left me when I needed him in those dark days of my life

First when I started living in the organization I still had that tiny hope in my heart that of all of the people my papa will bring me out of these whole dark and unwanted place but as the days passed I started losing the hope

It's just that I don't want to blame anyone , I don't want to see from my past that will bring the horrible days I suffered. Those old dark days where I used to cry my eyes out for help, despair the hopelessness and longing of love.

I was at critical junction of my life that I needed the warmth of family but I was never granted that tiny wish .at some point I just wanted to destroy everything and end my life but… I was never able to do that I want to live for the sacrifices and continue my revenge .

I parked my jeep at the spot and removed my military shirt, underneath I still had my black plain shirt and opened the jeep door.

Quickly locking it up I make my way towards the entrance I see that the door is already kept open probably grandpa.

I just couldn't pinpoint that why the Coleman family came today while they usually don't come when grandpa used to call them when I was present. they would avoid me like I am some kind plague they might be disgusted by me I just smile at my silly thoughts

Whatever I don't care now I had left the feelings of love of a family from them a long time ago. I shrug my shoulders put my hands in my pocket and walk past the long hallways where I could still hear and see the voices of grandpa and father talking with wine in their hands and mother and Suzan giggling and when I look at the other side just next to a distance that Elle was talking to someone on the phone

When I look at my brothers back similar to fathers but just a bit sturdy and wide

I remember when I was small 5 maybe I had fallen down and my scrapped my knee it was really hurting badly I started crying just than my brother came running towards me anxiously he started cooing me he cleaned up my wound tied a handkerchief to the wound when he saw that I was not able to walk he pulled me on his back piggy ride which I used to love. My brother was never the one to talk more but I knew he used to always show me his love through action.

At a small age I was the always talkative while he was the mature similar to daddy those childhood days' fights, sharing, hugging I still miss my brother. But what broke my heart when in those years he never tried calling or meeting me, sometimes I think he still blames me for what happened to mother but it was never my choice of that I got kidnap.

The last time I saw my brother when I was leaving home when I looked straight at his eyes but there was no emotion in that he never tried stopping me. It just broke my heart.

I just stay there when I see grandpa calling someone I guess it is me

"father where is your Freya is she not coming? this young lady doesn't know that it is disrespectful for allow the elders to wait", said mother.

"mom cool your anger sister must be busy somewhere she will come you sit down it is not good for your health "said Suzan

"humph"

"yes Sara don't spoil your health and for Freya she must be busy she will come ', said father

I can that my father is still the same pacifying mother he loves mother the most this interaction never stopped him even the thought of neglecting his own daughter

By looking at this family my whole felt numb .

"father I wanted to invite her for the party my friend is organizing and its very important event for the whole Coleman family I would have not bothered even disturbing her but my friends still remember her they want to see her. I just don't want to see her face but…"

Said mother

"Sara don't talk like that she is still our daughter .Lets start eating father call her now"

said father(Dominic)

"Dominic and Sara don't forget that the young lady you are talking is your daughter and my precious granddaughter even though you'll don't like her just don't say something that I will never able to look at your face u r my son but Freya is my heart. I don't know what kind of son I raised he cannot even differentiate what is right and wrong"

"just tell me being her parent you never raised her you'll never fulfilled the responsibility of a parent and abandoned her I picked her from the road I saw how fragile she looked what happened to her was not her mistake you'll made it like it was her fault when she returned home tell me what you'll did to her '?'

"you'll neglected her she needed a home but I can understand of Sara as she was not well but what about you "Marco(grandpa) pointed his finger at Dominic (father) in rage I can see his anger the stick he was holding was shaking.

"Dominic you were so blinded by your wife's health that you were not able to see the look of giving up in Freya's eyes when she left. when I saw that look it frightened me I never saw a girl of just 14 wanted to end her life. whole day she used to wait for your or anyone in the family will call her back but you'll never called. her health started declining to the extent that she fell into depression my heart hurt thinking of those days but you guys were enjoying your holiday I'm ashamed to call you my son", said grandpa

With that He sat in the nearby couch I can see his anger flaring up again "dad I know what I did was wrong but Sara is my number one person I knew as a father I failed but I couldn't do anything what happened to her is still a mystery but I know I broke the trust that Freya had put me in but father u have to see from my point of view ,if something happened to me and you were told to pick any one choice you would have chosen mom not me because you love mom to the extent that you had already forgotten your son im your son father and you know me better than anyone else"

Father (Dominic) said

"and in those days I couldn't see my life without Sara. she was the only thing I could think off I could not neglect her health which got worsened due to kidnapping of Freya dad tell me did I do something that I shouldn't have done. I know for Freya this is unfair and injustice I cannot bring back the time and I still regret that I couldn't stop her from leaving home that day the baby my princess I wanted to treasure the fruit of our love cannot experience the love of family. sometimes I think if I had protected her severely she would be with us from the past 7 years I cannot find anything related to her even you are tightly guarding her tell me father what should I do Im really helpless?"

Sighing father sat down and gulped down the reaming wine I one go

"son I know that what you did was correct but you left Freya when she needed the comfort of family the most even I her grandpa who raised her cannot see past through her defenses what she went through while was kidnapped I saw her at night constantly having nightmares which increased when she left home I don't know how to say but her eyes speak of darkness her heart is already frozen I tried investigating from her but she just avoid that question now im getting old too I tried convincing you to come when she was home but you'll declined saying that Sara doesn't want to see her face but I never told her that im really tired of finding more excuses for facing your responsibility you failed back than I want my Coleman family to live together with Freya included"

"I understand dad but will Freya listen will she stay with us? I know we f*cked the whole thing

because of my wife I left Freya she must be angry with me right dad? "Said Dominic

Marco looked at his sons face which clearly showed the desolation and regret he sighed and rubbed his temples so that he can soothe his head which was aching

"you know your daughter son she is just like you I don't want to say but…..Freya is my life if anyone from the Coleman specially your stepdaughter tries anything funny just forget our father and son relationship and this is my warming , regarding Freya staying with us I will try to talk to her about that she will obey my every word and tell Sara to control her anger she is still her daughter I don't want a daughter-in-law who neglects and takes side of stepdaughter just mark my words Dominic "Marco said going towards the phone telephone to call Freya

" father just tell me what Freya did after she left her school, I tried finding but I had not seen her face from last 7 years …. And? she still lives here? what she is doing? "I remember when I used to bring her to my office she wants to become like me a businessman "

Dominic smiled remembering those innocent words said by a 5-year-old was quiet funny but he knew better than anyone his daughter was a legend his heart trembled remembering the words she said when she left home. He still can't get over the face when he slapped her that was the first time he put his hands on her.

He sighed putting down all the sorrow down looked at his father who was looking at HIM. His father knew he did was a great mistake but still.

"Dominic your daughter is living peacefully, as for the matter of living here hmmm.she doesn't live with me and for being a businesswoman she didn't want to be that "

"then what she is doing? studying? I remember she skipped grades after returning to us she must be 19 this year right? "Dominic said

"Freya after she left home her eyes showed one thing suicide I didn't want her to be in the world of business so I chose her a different way she just wanted something that and that I couldn't give her no matter what. I think her life will take great turns in future I remember she joined that path because I chose for her. I wanted my granddaughter to be like me tough but I can still see that her smile is just a façade she is genuine towards me but that's not her original face I never saw her laughing my heart feels bitter what has those bastard kidnappers had done to her she cannot even express her feelings and she is still in our country "Marco replied

"dad I called her on the number which you gave but she didn't pick it up she must have known that was my private number sigh…. that girl she never tried confronting me I never gave my daughter a pampered life I just failed as a father. Dad you raised her I quiet feel ashamed to face you. dad what would you had done if you were in my place"?

Dominic looked at his fathers back who was looking outside the window lonely and lifeless

"son I don't know what I would have done but I will never blame you when I look at Freya I always remember your mothers face those violet eyes I love the most she is my life Dominic after your mom passed away we got Freya she had those eyes "

Dominic's eyes softened when he remembered when Freya opened her eyes after birth when he was holding he saw her violet eyes which were his mother's eyes 'rare'.

He loved his mom the most and those violet eyes spoke of gentleness. he failed to protect his mother's form his daughter his princess.

"I know dad those eyes will always be in my heart I cannot erase the past but I want our relationship as a daughter and father to repair to a certain level that I can speak to her as a normal stranger that is enough for me I want our family to be united I will talk with Sara and convince her. Dad ply talk to Freya about this I don't have the gut to face her .is still coming? you told her that we are coming?''

"no I don't want her to be heartbroken when she sees that you'll are not coming I told her that I want to talk to her she is a very busy person that ungrateful unfilially granddaughter of mine doesn't even pick up my call when she comes I will not talk to her "Marco smiled foolishly planning to make Freya guilty and convince her to live with them he wants her live a life of a teenager of her age and be happy so that she forgets the promise she made with him.

He wants her to be free of any dangers and risks that's why he put her in a military so that she can be disciplined and fade away the dangerous aura coming from her.

Dominic saw his father's smiling face to a serious one he puzzled.in reality he was quiet jealous of his dad who knows Freya better than him. he knows that it will be difficult for her to accept him but he will try his best so that Freya can give him a second chance to repair their relationship.

He still doesn't know what she is doing? Where could she be living? if she doesn't live here than where? She is so busy that she cannot even pick her grandpas call. he knows that his father doesn't want to tell him it must secret.

Till today he was not able to find her location, to an extent of a phone number. He had to ask his father for her number.

When he saw his father dialing number it must be Freya

When I saw the interaction between my father and grandpa my heart felt bitter my eyes were about to teared up when the buzzing of phone in my pocket awakened me I pulled it out of my pocket and saw the caller id I quickly rejected it when I looked up and saw my brother looking towards my direction with a confused, surprise in his eyes he was at the end of the hall he just stared in my direction because of darkness he was only able to see my eyes he must have recognized me

I wanted him to atleast call out to me, haaa That was just a wishful thinking Elle will never remember a sister he had. I wiped the tear drop that was about to flow with my thumb and quickly turned towards the exit straightening my back and walking away with a fast pace.

Somewhere I wanted my brother to stop me but he just stood in the same place without moving I quickly made me towards my jeep where I again got a call from grandpa I sighed and This time I answered it .

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