The bright smiles that was painted on her face as he strum the chords of the guitar. His sweet voice that clearly register in her ears. Her eyes shut as she hum to the melody of the song. It was a clear day. The sun shines so bright in the blue sky. The green leafy trees as though dancing to the rythym.
It was my dream to be with a girl in this perfect day. I want to sing my heart out as I look into her eyes. I'll closely look her face. Her image clearly registered in my head. The breathing that I hear. The scent of her that I smell. I won't ever forget it.
I can still recall the very first moment I saw you. It was raining heavily that time. I was on the shed standing. My heart beats fast though it in a race as you run towards where I am. You were pretty back then. And more prettier now. I wanted said Hi but you look annoyed. I offered you my handkerchief instead. You smiled at me as you reached your hand. Without you knowing I was looking at your every move. And without me knowing I fell in love for the first time. I thought it was love at first sight and will just fade away. But as the days passed, it grows deep and rooted into my innocent heart. I told myself, you're the one for me though I don't know a lot of information about you.
So I couragely decided to write a letter and send it to you. I was so afraid that you will just ignore me as there's a lot of rivals too.
I haven't received any response to that letter and I thought it's the end. I hid myself curled up somewhere in a ball sobbing.
And then there comes a chance when a friend of mine who became your friend's boyfriend introduce me to your group. I was happy then that I get to know you. We mostly go out after class with your group. And later on, we became friends. We get close and closer until I have known you more. And this feeling grows deeper and deeper.
And today, I don't want to miss this chance to tell you how I truly feel. I love you Trix, would you be my girlfriend?
Tears shedding her eyes. That was a perfect and a special day for her. For both of them. Her heart pounded as she recalls that day where he confessed his live to her. That was the day too, she said Yes. She slowly open her eyes, check the time. It's 3am of August 11.
Her pillow as the witness of how much tears she shed that day. How lonely the nights were.
What's new? He is still not here. And I miss him so much.
Curled up, she embrace her knee as she remembers the happy times she had with him. I may not have you but I am glad because of you, I know what love is. I have experience how to love truly and how to be love unconditionally. If we are meant for each other, no matter what, I know you will come back to me. And I will wait here. I will continue to wait for you, my love.
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