March 4
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When I first saw you, it was almost like I'd been shot straight through my chest. A sharp, agonising pain, it wasn't a terrible feeling though. It was addictive almost. The thought of that feeling, it makes me quiver! I tremble at every single glance I can steal from you!
It was early in the morning, just after roll call. You called out to me, and asked me if I was in a relationship. I took it as an insult at first, but something inside me changed. I thought you were a huge douche, your personality was cold and distant. You barely smiled. I never wanted to fall for a guy like you. But when you reached out to me, and showed me that smile of yours, I was instantly captivated and fell head over heels for you. How could someone so aloof, instantly turn into some guy you'd want to know more and more about? You piqued my interest instantly. I wanted to see all of you, I wanted to know all of you, I wanted all of you for myself. This world wasn't worthy enough to keep you for itself. The world would've hurt you, the world is hurting you. Yet you still seem to go back for more. I'm here, you're my world, come back to me. I'll keep you safe, no one can hurt you if you're with me. Even if it means risking my own life to protect you. I definitely will.
Although we don't speak much throughout the day, I always seem to have you on my mind, subconsciously I always seem to be in general vicinity of you as well. It relieves me to have you within at least 100 meters of my view. I notice you sometimes looking in my direction, I wonder... do you have any feelings for me too?
During my free time today, I decided to search you up online... that girl you follow on Instagram, what's her name? Oh! M****! What's your relationship with her? Are you guys classmates? Friends? Is she your potential love interest? I know you probably think I'm crazy right about now. But really, all the other girls you follow are either taken or out of your league. I'm not saying that you're a bad choice! I just mean, y'know... they're not really someone I could imagine with you. But seriously though! That M**** girl doesn't seem like your type either. She looks like she tries too much. Her duck faces in each and every single one of her posts are really off putting. I don't understand.
What do you see in her?
My goal this week is to hopefully strike up a conversation with you, what types of things do you like to talk about? When will you introduce me to your younger brothers too! Oh wait... oops. It's not like I know that you actually have brothers or anything. But they go to a different school don't they? See! I already know so much about you! When will you finally notice? She isn't worth your time, I am. I care about you, she doesn't. She doesn't even give a crap about your feelings, yet here you are trying to win her over?
You deserve much better than her.
So choose me instead, ok?