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Chapter 74 - He hate himself

Sera crashed the car just in front of the hospital, the people around the place got startled because of the sudden thud and looked at her. Without caring she get out of the car and tuck the gun at her back and stormed inside the hospital.

"Sera ! Sera!" Someone yelled her name from behind but without even looking ,she just stormed inside her mother's ward.

"Sera!"

Her heart was beating loudly till now, as if it was about to get out of her chest.

But the moment she entered her mother's ward, it was as if her heart beat got dropped crazily. Her heart beat start getting slow and slow as she looked at the scene infront of her.

Kyle sighed as he looked at Aiden who was yelling and running behind Sera all this time "Can you please give us sometime?"

Aiden nod and left, he punched the wall in irritation, he just wanted to ask her, if she have seen Ran somewhere.. he's really feeling uneasy right now... where are you Ran?

He scratched his neck as he walked out for the Vending machine, he needs something cold to calm himself down first.

Suddenly some footsteps stopped in front of the ward.

"Sera, come here"

Tears started fell down her cheeks, her chest start burning. Is.....Is it happiness she is feeling right now?

After years she finally heard her mothers voice again.

She wanted to run and hug her mother tight but it was like her feets got really heavy. She was feeling as if it is a dream and if she moved then this dream will get scattered.

She was scared.

She crouch down on the floor and start crying, she didn't move a bit and cried and cried looking at her mother face who was finally ..speaking and looking at her.

Seeing her precious daughter crying like this, her heart hurts. Tears start surfacing in Emily's eyes no matter how much she controls.

Kyle bit his lips as he looked at the girl crying and sobbing like a baby it was just like the last time when he met her that night. She was drunk and was just crying looking at him...whinnig like a baby.

That time he just walked away from her without even looking at her swollen eyes and cold face. But this time.. he stood up and walk towards her.

He softly sat in front of her as he looked into her teary eyes, now when he looks at her like that. She looks a lot like him, her eyes and lips are just like Emily but rest is just like him and she even cries.. just like him. He was holding his urge to hug his daughter but still he raised his hand to at least wipe her tears but even before he could touch her.

She stood up and walked towards her mother.

Kyle sighed, he took down his hand that was left hanging in air, as he looked at Emily who was looking straight in his eyes. He smiled at her but she could feel his despair behind that smile. Even if he if it wasn't his fault, even if he was betrayed and backstabbed and even if it was all hard for him too. But still he blames himself to not able to trust his love, he hate himself for not reaching Emily and clear things out, he hate himself for not be their for his daughter and his love, he hate himself to not able to give them what they really deserve and..

He really hate himself to lose 20 years of his daughter life.

He wasn't their to take her daughter in his embrace, he wasn't their to hold her hand when she start walking, he wasn't their for her to teach her how to ride bicycle, he wasn't their for her when she started going school, he wasn't their for her to take her side and protect her from bad peoples, he don't deserve to call a father.

He hate himself for everything.