Hanahaki Disease

Hello my name is besily 'bee'smith and I have the Hanahaki Disease,and we'll no one loves me,i know it's weird right "how can no one love you besily?" Well sometimes you can't be loved no matter what I've searched all my life to seek for someone that likes me but I mean I love other people but no one loves me that much,not even my parents they weren't abusive!,they just didn't want a child and anyways the only thing I get close to love is drunk people, flirtatious drunk people!,so hell with it!,but I'm getting off track here is my story about my life having the hanahaki disease