So after the drama in my mother's cave room she went crazy at me to which i just walked out the house and left her yelling at herself.
Went to find my best friend John and he was home so we both chilled in his room listening to music koRn for that matter life is peachy album.
We both aged and everything was different i was looking at john in such a different way i'd read all the books i needed to studied the tarot and crystal scrying, These were going really well i couldn't help but feel for John I'm starting to find myself now and also very confused about everything mainly my sexuality the feeling for John was a deep feeling not the friendly type but that's for more of later on in the story and not now.
I left John's house at around 12am returned home and started to do myself a tarot card reading shuffling the cards till i feel the need to stop so i then lay 3 cards on my table,
Past, Present, Future cards my Past card was a tower which i understood as since the day of the cave drama me and my mother havent been the same,
My Present card was 3 of cups im not up fully on my cups so i refer to the book for this one.
My Future card was 2 of cups these i can see that my past was stumbling and falling down but looking at the next 2 cards its showing a new romance.
The only other person i can think of at the moment is John because I'm confused about it at the moment but i can't stop thinking about him .
But anyway let's move on my instincts are taking me down a completely different path to my mother I'm reading more and looking in to and researching with dark magic and necromancy i want to play with the dead and invite them to join me on my lifes path from what i've researched its more interesting than white magic and also dealing with the dead I'm graverobbing little things at the moment and then i can swap them for my spell work as everything has a price with it take one thing and gift it for my spell work.
When I'm with my mother spellcasting i use the white magic bit i do my own stuff in the woods where I'm dealing with the dead and having they help me I'm getting stronger and stronger with my necromancy than my white light spells.
I'm working on raising a whole person from the grave to help me I'm looking on the intranate and researching it but its getting hard to get the parts my next goal is to go to the local graveyard and find someone.