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Chapter 2 - Chapter 1:My World

Loneliness.Darkness.Pain.Humiliation.I'm not new to these things.It feels suffocating to feel these things everyday.But I guess you can say I'm used to it.It feels like your tied down to the floor with chains.It feels like there's no way out.There is no remedy.No medicine to numb the pain.Nothing.All my life I've suffered misfortunes. People say black cats bring bad luck and ladybugs bring good luck.My whole entire life I've never ran into any black cat.Why does bad stuff happen to me everyday.I'm kagami Kim.Im 17 years old.There isn't anything specific I love to do.Well there is one thing but people find it foolish.It might be weird but it helps me.It takes me to a different world.It's music.It feels so calming.When I'm sad I'll put the music on so loud that I can't feel anything.I want to be a songwriter.A singer.I want to help people through music.I want to show people how to love themselveses.How to have confidence.To do what makes them happy.I don't want anyone to feel what I feel.It might sound foolish to people that I want to be a singer.Some say I won't make it.Others say that that is not a good career.Some say that it a waste of time.They call me foolish,stupid,an idiot.But it doesn't matter.I've heard their words so much that I'm used to it.When words don't help music does.We'll that's what I say.Music is like a remedy.It cures a broken heart.It takes you to a whole different universe.Some people say that it's stupid.But I say that it's not.They don't feel pain so how can they say that.When someone is hurt music helps.People say to give up.I said okay.But I didn't give up.I didn't tell people my dreams anymore.Instead I decided to find another remedy.And so I did.It felt good.Not as good as music.But is still helped.It was the ocean.I felt free.It felt like these chains that kept pulling me down broke.I felt like I can swim forever and ever.It felt like I had no limit.I felt free.This was a new world that I discovered.