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Chapter 2 - A conversation with Suraj

Suraj My friend you are changed a lot . You came to Bhopal but I got the news from my another friend . I came to see you at your place with her as you wished for . I found that you are not excited to meet your old friend me but you are excited to see Ritu . But I never mind I was happy and excited to meet you I dressed well just to let you know that I m no longer the tom boy . But you didn't notice . You treat me like I was not even there . After I reached I didn't see the excitement you have once on your face as earlier it used to be. You came and lean right near Ritu . its not like I want you to lean on me but I was right behind you and I am looking at your back you didn't sit facing me . I was listening to your stories and ritu but didn't get anything coz Its I guess so personal I dont even know the characters you are naming while conversation is going on between you and her. I was just listening but you both didnt see me like am I getting what you guys are talking about . I came in front of you guys so that atleast you'll see me but Again this idea won't work . You go get something to eat as she told you . but not even once you said come and eat urwashi . She said she is only gonna eat one chapati but He insisted her to eat all three chapati and I'll eat one . So there He didn't even mention my name . When she insisted I said no after that He told me . I don't want to eat but I eat for the sake of her. I know He was more caring towards her I am happy for both of them but I m the one who feel again cornered . I insisted them lets go back to our homes . I'm sort of bored and don't want to tell them How I feels. They then had a conversation where she said that suraj you will get angry on her once and you didn't call me back for five days. So he tells Tell why would I get angry On anyone I don't have reason to get angry on anyone. I thought Why would he didn't say on you coz he was having conversation with her . I get this idea He was kind of giving me the hint . I hate that if you are pointing me you should have the courage to tell me in front . I appreciate that . and there I reacted aggressively but I sound jealous and I felt cornered , miserable and I m not that type of girl I wanted to go I really wanted to cry . I am hurted . while crossing the road She was telling me to take care of the vehicles But inside me I said to myself I would rather wanted to have a accident I felt I wanted to die coz I have less no. of people stand by my side . They are my best friends but they make me feel cornered . This was not happened for the first time It was happened so many times. Why would I feel to get some attention . People changes as time changes . I don't give a damn But why I felt hurted coz I care about me . I am now in the stage of being self centered .