I couldn't sleep at all after the lady's visit. Who was she? It's her second visit now. Where does she come from? I missed the chance to tell mother about this situation. She is visiting her sister and will be staying there for a week. Apart from the maid and Sunhye, who is sleeping in her room, nobody is there in the house. It's a little tense situation, what if she is some psycho.... obsessed with Kou? She might have seen me with him and now was threatening me to stay away? Should I call Mom and tell her to come back as soon as possible? She hardly gets any time for herself, cutting her stay short is not what I wanted to do. That's when I got a text from Jordan ...asking me to come outside near the wall. The wall is a boundary separating our plots and we communicated from over the wall since childhood.
I took the ladder with me, climbed it and sat over the edge of the wall. Jordan was already sitting there.
Hey! Morning, you don't look good. Anything worrying you?
Jordan was kind and caring, my best buddy untill Sunhye started going out with him. It was fun for a while .... The three of us would always hit it off. But after their break up it was genuinely awkward... So we stopped hanging out.
Nothing, it's been a while since we came here didn't we? What's up? Why did you call me here?
Jordan looked a little, I was guessing his expression, when he blurted out," I messed up with your bike yesterday, I'm sorry!"
"What?But why?" As soon as the words left my mouth, my brain already knew the answer.
" I wanted to be with Sunhye, going to school together was the perfect opportunity. Buddy! Help me out, please!" Jordan was pleading to me. That was interesting.
It is really funny if you see how love or attraction can change humans. Affection - everyone wants it. Like it's the air necessary for living. As if it makes your life more bright! If it was me a week before, I would have made fun of him. But now I understand Jordan. So instead I too got some profit out of this situation.
I can't get my bike repaired soon. So how about you guys give us a lift to school for one week?
Jordan, had this grin on his face. He figured it out why I was coming up with this situations. And then his grin dissappeared.
He has a girlfriend, though. It'll be tough for you. I'm fine with this, will you be alright?
"What are you talking about? I was just helping you guys." I blurted out. "Ok I misunderstood, it's a deal then?" Jordan with his pleading face was a sight to look at. I just nodded and went back inside my room and started to get ready for school. In the shower the lady's words echoed in my head. She was right, it was Jordan who messed with the rear tire. She was right about one more thing, I'm regretting it.
It was my first time being attracted to someone. And that someone happens to be taken. It shouldn't be a big deal. But it still hurts. It wasn't like I was head over heels for him. Suddenly I wasn't so sure.
To cherish first love. To be the one who is loved back. To go on that first date. I didn't realize but I had been hoping for them to come true. I was delusional. I just put my feelings first. I was being selfish.
Such is first love. It can change it's colours from cherry blossoms pink to dull grey of winter any minute.