I will never be normal. No matter how hard I try to go back, there is no back to go to. It's simply just gone. I have wasted so many moments trying to move on and forget. Yet I always forget. What we want is not what we get. Even when it comes to the fucked up situation. I just want to live and not just survive. No one helped me then,so why would I want it now. Telling Empty apologies because you hated the outcome of your own creation. When I was younger there was only darkness. I spent so much time looking for a light I would never find. After a while you give up. And other times you can create a false light. (Black light if you will). Because there still isn't any light. But you can take the darkness and try and laugh at it. I'm beyond past trying to be normal. I'm fucking crazy and delusional. But, who isn't in this fucked up word. The world's fucked up and so am I, so either deal with it or fuck off.