How could I possibly snap now, if Ive been put throught the grinder. My patience is almost infinite, I dont sugar coat the truth. And I don't care if my mouth should be shut, Because it Won't. Do not mistake my kindness as a weekness, it is a privilege. I can be your best friend and or your worst memory; the choice is up to you. Even though I seem genuine, I'm really good at acting ( props to those who manipulated me. using all the knowledge as a whole, puts improv and acting to a whole nother level.) Knowing and living through the aftermath of my darkest days, I have no reason to live; So living freely is merely around the corner. Slow down, look around and take in good imagery, because the good times don't last forever. I don't wince at pain unless I can't hold on, because making noise would only be an exaggerated reaction. Being selfish is hated by those who don't like being copied, because ultimately they are no longer feeling enjoyment. And when that happens they have very little humility to care how far they are willing to go to regain the feeling of pleasure. when there is no escape you have to make one. Think of any possible thing, moment, sound, voice. And say it outloud over and over again. Picture it in your mind. Dance to that thought, laugh when you hear the word slip from your mouth. Regain control of happiness through the power of your minds reality. Realize in the end the only one to trust is you, and that's not always true. If you want it, you have to be willing to go far to achieve it. In the end everybody who's willing to run, but trips in the process. Wether you get back up is up to you. And your not a fool for staying down. Because in the end, as a species, we are all victim to unconsentual life. trying to find out why will drive you insane, but it's the only explanation that is opinionated most rather than factual. So much so I don't think there is an actual answer.
If this makes sense then congratulations. If not same here. (Kind of).