there was always something nostalgic about being back in school on the first day. I'm not sure what it is, but it reminds me back in the grade school days like 5th and 6th and fourth and third basically any of them. but as Time Marches on that excitement goes away. not excitement happiness, or joy. now it's just a thing to do to occupy my time. so I have a reason to live. The emptiness never went away, they say the experiences are supposed to be fun, but what do you do when some never happen or happened. what if they never appear...well then, to be continued.