I had all the reasons to despise the Kaiser, my Uncle Willy. He precipitated the Great War to top all of it which resulted in massive deaths, destructions, despair and depression.
But the Great War only hastened the demise of the Romanovs. With or without it, the end was really coming for my father's dynasty.
Papa was a good son, a good student with above average intelligence but he was not built to rule hundred million subjects. He knew it and he tried to reason with his parents to make them understand that he is not qualified for the position.
My grandparents should have listened to him but they didn't. I guess papa inherited his stubbornness from both of them as tables turned when he met mama and insisted that they should marry.
My grandparents and even mama's own granny, Queen Victoria didn't approved of the match.
They knew that my mother was not fit to be an Empress because of her unbalanced disposition, irrational thinking and emotional instability.
They tried everything to change my Papa's mind but they failed.
If they only knew how to listen to each other as family, things would have been so different.
I don't hate Mama. She tried her best to be an Empress, wife and mother the way she knew how. I just wished she had the intuition and discernment for a woman of her status but I don't think she had any.
Even before the birth of Alexei, she was already fascinated with the supernatural. Instead of living in reality and dealing with it, she chose the mystical ways and heavily involved herself to the other side, the invincible world, the realm of the unknown.
If there were some hope for Mama's steadiness, it disappeared when my brother was diagnosed with a blood disorder which she passed on to him because she was the carrier.
From then, she ruined her already tarnished reputation by bringing Rasputin into the Russian court. A self styled monk who claimed to have the supernatural ability to heal my brother..
Mama was bewitched to the point of hysteria, Papa did nothing to stop the madness.
As rulers of one of the most powerful Empires and Kingdoms on earth, they should have known better than to succumb theirselves to the bizarre and eccentric ways of their subjects, not just Rasputin but everyone.
Back in the Kaiser's palace, I was served and treated like an Imperial Princess as ordered by Uncle Willy. I tried to look for him but he was nowhere to be found.
Ivan, I need to find him as well. I was about to leave my temporary room when someone showed up in front of my door..